Author: tiredofthegame

Posted: Sat Oct 29, 2011 11:33 pm

Well alright people tomorrow is the day the 72 hours comes up with no fentanyl and I am going to make the switch. I am wondering is the xanax I took helping the wd’s so I can make it and plus I am trying to find out about the pupil thiung. Please I will let you know how it turns out but any last minute suggesstions would be great because i still do not feel in full withdrawl, bit i got some signs I am getting there which might be good enough please let me know and I will catch up with you in the morning

Author: Ironic

Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2011 3:00 am

I don’t think it is all that weird for someone who is new to recovery.

I do think it is weird for someone who is 5 years clean.

Are your cravings managed on a full-agonist?

Only you know what is right for YOU.

Author: Ironic

Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2011 3:04 am

If they are making $100 off you for each drug test and you haven’t fucked up at all, then this is DEFINITELY NOT normal and you need to switch doctors. Immediately.

Again, the only way I could see that being normal is if you regularly piss dirty.

My doctor u/as every time I go in, but never calls me in, and never any pill counts. Actually, I have never heard of anyone on Sub getting pill counts, only people on real heavy painkillers, and it isn’t common.

Author: nomoremommyfood

Posted: Sun Oct 30, 2011 7:23 am

Perhaps I misspoke or didn’t explain myself clearly.

I’m really not bitching about anything – just looking for a support system. I run a art collective. Yes, I work the door at shows but how that equates to some sort if irony, I’m not sure. Should I completely separate myself from the art scene – from the gallery I’ve been working my ASS of to bring out of debt – if that’s what I love doing?

And, if my friends support me, understand the situation and take "no thanks" for an answer, I see no reason to "stay away" from them. Again, I run an underground gallery. Should I abandon the 8 years of hard labor I’ve devoted to turn it into a reputable non-profit and community space?

As for "going broke on dope and coke," what I mean is – went through my student loan money and graduated without a job and no savings. I HAD been on generic bupe, but couldn’t afford them, thus went through RB’s patient assistance program in order to be able to afford the meds.

What irony are you referring to, exactly?

That I’d prefer to be on a generic sub-lingual tablet but have no insurance and opted for the patient assistance program and, therefore, the film strips RB requires ALL patients on their "Here to Help" plan to take? Or is ironic that I relapsed, hated it, and went back on the sub strips – which, admittedly, I find more difficult to take.

I think either you’ve misunderstood my attempt at a friendly introduction, or I’ve misunderstood your reaction.

Regardless, why jump down my throat for any of it?

I’m sorry of I’ve offended anyone. I find this site an excellent source of solid research and information on the benefits of bupe. And was only hoping to add my input on various issues (aside for an introduction I probably should’ve calmed down before writing). I have no idea if this forum is of the "we accept you, have no fear of judgement," or "we don’t know you, sayonara."

Lemme know what’s up, and I’m happy to decline my membership and move on.

Author: stp747

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:16 pm

It’s actually an imprint of a sword.

Author: indigochild

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:20 pm

musta not worked that great being you said this:"Being broke on coke and dope (what they call heroin in Chicago) I got on patient assistance through Reckitt and switched from generic to film." this says by yer own addmission you were broke on coke and dope=therefore you went to the film……i don’t get what the phuch yer beotchin bout….

Author: meltalk

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:34 pm

Feeb sounds like my recovery now that I think back hum!!!! i had a 3 disc fusion lower back. I was so miserable in the hospital NOTHING helped me Now that you say that I can understand that is what was wrong with me. The nurses were ready to get me and my mom out of there. I had 180 extra pills in my purse but mom would not give them to me. But when I got home buddy I had two scrips. Then I was ok,better but I tell you that was a hell of alot of pain.
I haven’t thought about that in awhile. It is good sometimes to remember where you were and where you are now.
Be Blessed,
Mel

Author: sweet16

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:34 pm

OMG!!! You guys are RAD! (I know, I am an 80’s child) Thank you so much for taking the time to share your thoughts. It is MUCH appreciated. It really boosts my determination.

Breezy, holy molly! YOU HAVE TWINS..That alone makes you super-woman. I am definately taking your advise. It has sorta crossed my mind if taking my meds at night would be ok or not. I look forward to my meds. it in the morning, but I am not trying to develope a new habit. It may be worth a try just to switch it up. Thanks for the encouragement. It means a lot.

Lillyval, you are so right. I have not really had much in the way of withdrawl until now, that I am on 2 mg. Whew, I am feeling all kinds of things. I AM taking baths (never used to) adding epsom salt like you mentioned. It absolutely helps like nothing else. I sorta feel like I am pulling all the tricks out of my hat too soon. I know I am going to need use every little thing I can, when I actually do jump. I am going to go to the doc and get clonidine for sure, although I’ll wait to use it till I jump. I am afraid if I keep doing all the things you guys suggest now while I am just tapering they will not work as well when I really need them. I am definitely going to listen to my body before I drop again.
Ahhh the benzo thing. Well, I have been taking them for over a year, so it is clear that i will have to address that issue as well eventually. It is odd, but while I was on my DOC, I did not take benzos and I did not get withdrawl, but I am not using this as an excuse. I know I will have to work this out in the future. So how are you doing? I think you are around 5 or 6 days now right? I have not had a chance to read much today. I will catch up tonight. I hope you are moving right along…
Shane86, thanks for your comments. How are you feeling now? Are you are on your 3rd day off of sub? I cant wait to be off sub too. I am so glad you commented on my post. It is so helpful to read other peoples experiences. Everyone has a different story and each one has unique circumstances. Good for you for taking charge and reclaiming your life back. It gives me real hope for change in my own life. I wish you luck as you move forward. I know there will be challanges, but if you really want it, you CAN move past your addictions and start living the life you want. Be positive & do not let anything stand in your way of a life FREE from addiction.
Substation- Thank you so much. I have read thru all of your posts and I have to say I feel like you are like a mentor to many here and quite a success jumping so high. (12 mg right) GEEZE. I am guessing somewhere around sept. 11 was your last dose? Gosh how ya feeeling now? That is right about the time I started to think I was going to taper. Now look, I am down from 4 mg to 2mg. I owe a lot to reading everyones experiences and the encouragement.
FROM MY HEART, everyone, thank you all….

Author: sweet16

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 9:52 pm

REALLY 5 days. This sounds so wonderful. You sound great! So truely happy for you. It is a good day

Author: sweet16

Posted: Fri Oct 28, 2011 10:11 pm

Dear Finallyoff & jcb1981,
I really believe that you ARE where you really want to be." OFF SUBOXONE". Right. Wouldnt it be really wonderful to be kind to yourself, right now, for this one thing alone? You are doing IT! You are OFF suboxone. So many people wish they could be where you are. BE THANKFUL to yourself. Give yourself a pat on the back. YOU KNOW that this feeling will not last forever. It is impossible. One day at a time. I know you are thru the worst of it. It can only get better from here on out. If you have read any of the other threads about jumping off sub, day 10 is usually as bad as it gets. Try to find the positive in your situation. Same with you jcb1981, give yourself a break and let yourself be happy, be free, enjoy your life. We will never know happiness any other way if we dont allow our joy to shine thru. You guys ARE OFF SUB! It beats being on sub. So be happy.
(sorry if I sound harsh, but I believe in you both)