Updated Date: Feb 22, 2013 EST (Source: DailyMed Drug Label Updates for the last seven days (since May 20, 2007 EST))

Updated Date: Feb 22, 2013 EST (Source: DailyMed Drug Label Updates for the last seven days (since May 20, 2007 EST))

Updated Date: Feb 22, 2013 EST (Source: DailyMed Drug Label Updates for the last seven days (since May 20, 2007 EST))

Author: clcbill

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:00 am

Hi there, this is, well, looong overdue!! My former username is/was BigRed, some members may remember (or not!!). I just could not figure out what I was doing wrong to reactivate my account…no biggie. I am sure it is something on my end. Nevertheless, I am here with a new account for a reason. UPDATE!!!!!!!!

First let me start off by saying this forum is absolutely an amazing site. Great people! Even if I was not currently posting for whatever the many reasons where at the time, I would always frequent this forum (mainly from my mobile device). I can go on and on about the awseome people(support) and advice this forum provides…however this is not why am typing this currently (maybe another time!)

First I must start off saying (I’m sure most can tell haha) I AM NOT A DOCTOR NOR EXPERT!!! I am just ‘some dude’ in the northeast. I started with this forum years ago looking for some support since the people around me ‘just didn’t get it’. Long story short, after I have had some financial issues, computer issues, relationship issues, etc… blah blah, who doesn’t right?? Not a good enough ‘excuse’ I know! It is what it is. What I mean by ‘excuse’ is that I remember vividly how much this fourm truely helped me out and I most certainly should have stuck around to try and return the favor, but I apologize and digress…

I’m sure, regaurdless if you remember me or not, if you are reading this you are wondering: 1.did he relapse? 2.did he taper? 3.did he jump? 4.did he (fill in the blank)? Short answers: NO! I did not relapse …. Yes I did taper …. Yes and No, I tapered as far as possible with subutex 8mg tabs but eventually had to ‘jump’, however the jump was NOT from a 10 story building, if ya catch my drift… Answer to number 4 is obvious, because I am here typing this right now!!!!!

I will go into some more detail at another time. I am still self-employed, had a little time on my "new"-OLD computer for paperwork today and I just had to make this post.

I must say this even though I do not want to start name dropping and it has been quite some time, but THANK YOU MEL!!!!

PS
If anyone could help me with recovering my older account BigRed, I would greatly appreciate it!!! If not, no worries but thank you anyway in advance!!!!

Author: wisharer

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:25 am

hey. um.. f corrective thoughts. i am just wondering on the whole basis of this and now to read about how it with the forum that i have been turning to since my true attempt whhich is for in my own self setbacks. i respect this place and thank you for all not that i am alone with these idk thoughts, control , attempt s wishing u the best and always know that u are not alone . and wondering how u today?

Author: wisharer

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:36 am

i really like ur title bumpy smooth bumpy .. thats where i feel like i am. wishing u a good day.

Author: Donechasing

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 10:46 am

I don’t think so, as I still get relief from tylenol and advil (ibuprofen).

Author: mg113

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 11:04 am

April 15th of this year will mark 2 years of me being off subs. I am not saying its easy staying sober, however I have made many changes in my life since then, I got married, moved, I no longer even know where to get pills or dope. I was on methadone for around 2 years and subs for around 2 years.. then I weaned off with the support of my doctor. It was my decision, and my doctor fully supported me thru it all.

Although I am not on subs anymore my sub dr is also my phsyciatrist so I still see him every 3 months now, and he is still supportive of my decision. What helps me stay sober the most is excercise… it got me thru the withdrawals, and its how i start every day at the gym.. I guess one could say I am addicted to adrenoline which is probably true, since I feel the best after a workout but hey I can handle that addiction. Also I no longer have contact with anyone that I knew when I used.

I am not going to lie and say I dont have cravings, but really that does not happen that often…this much I do know, coming off subs was not easy, and I never ever ever want to go thru any sort of withdrawal again, I am 50 years old and done with that part of my life.

My life is better since i have been off subs, however everyone is different. For me right now life is better.

Everyone is different so I say do what works best for you.

Author: Donechasing

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 11:18 am

Hello, I am new to this site.

I am 45, male, and used "regularly as opposed to chipping" oxycodone for some 5 years, with a normal load of 180 mg daily.

Due to a legal problem (turned in a forged script) I quit the oxy in October of 2012, and tried to get through the holidays on a smaller dose of vicodin/hydrocodone.

Started outpatient detox around December 1, and thus suboxone at 8mg per day, though I am allowed 12.

I want to stop it as I don’t feel human while I am on it. I feel emotinally flatlined, no laughing, no crying, and though I make myself perform duties around the house, I have to make myself do it or I’ll just lay and feel lifeless.

I know that at 3 months, I have already assembled a dependancy to this, just as the other, but I guess since I don’t get the happy feeling from this like I did the oxy, should I suffer as badly when I go off it?

The holidays were miserable, as I felt like the suboxone keeps me confused, numb, and just generic from a personality perspective.

While I tried detoxing from the oxy on a permanent basis (many times had gone through the monthly script in 10 days and therefore completed a detox shortterm many times over) I got so depressed, couldn’t come up with one positive thought or emotion, and simply would consume myself with every negative emotion, regret and circumstance from my past.

I want out of this self-made prison. I know DR. J says some are destined to use and be maintained on sub, and while I have my own opinion personally in regards to myself and my situation that is different, I just want to enjoy life on life’s terms again. I am ready to bail out, and cut my daily dose from 8 yesterday to 4 today, would like to try doing 1/2 of yesterday’s dose until there is such a small fragment of film left I can’t find it to take. Anybody try this and make it?

I am a stay-at-home father, many times by myself throughout the day, and I know this contributed to my use. I also have a shot lumbar with degenerative disc disease and an injury, so the pain was my route in. Now I no longer have legal access to drugs other than the sub as detox medication. I also am college degreed electrical engineer with honors, that wants to restore my career, my vitality, and drive to get out of bed everyday. Right now, while stable on sub, I feel like I’d just like to sleep the whole day away, everyday. I still have my loving wife and adorable 7 year old son, sticking by me. I want to stop all this mind-warping stuff and move on. I realize looking back now that my use created an anti-social complacent derelict that couldn’t have possibly held a job from the binges and dryouts I used to live. I am ready to take one more slump to get through it and come out clean. Then I want to reestablish my self-esteem which is currently zero and get on with life.

Could a clean sub survivor with similar situations pls yield some advice?

Thanks
DC

Author: 2BaHealthy1

Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2013 3:16 pm

Holy cow… Our lives and addiction-cycle seems so similar. Thanks for outlining the start of your addiction to now. My story is VERY parallel to yours with the exception I grew up Mormon and had well-protected childhood and upbringing. But I too became involved with an older man at a young age and I played wife with him for years before I decided I couldn’t take it anymore and I wanted to bust-out of the pumpkin shell in which I felt he kept me… and I left. It was musicians and DJ’s after that and a lot of drugs. I remember falling INLOVE with those Norcos. And then even more-so the Oxycontin. I was so MAD when they became uncrushable. Crack; however, was the last drug I ever tried. I loved the H and Roxy too much to even take much interest in crack (I was like ehhhh *shrugs). All in all though, I loved the music scene and I loved drugs period… So pretty much, if someone had it… I did it.

I read about what makes you drawn to a man… him sleeping, his beautiful children. I’m the same way!

I’m happy you are married, on track and feeling good