Another story.. my road to destruction and recovery

Author: tinydancer

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 12:54 pm

Romeo wrote:
I agree about the sense of humor, Tiny. I think my sense of humor is critical to my continued recovery.

*sigh*, it’s Friday and we’re celebrating with a cup of coffee….not quite how it used to be, eh? Laughing

Sense of humor = survival..lol.

No, not wuite how it used to be but I’ll tell you what, I really like my coffee these days. It feels so good to wake up fresh and only need a hot cup of coffee. I love it.

Barelyboxed wrote:
Tinydancer….I am a "she"….and I would definitely consider myself to be as you described, "sensitive & feminine." I’ve always been a caregiver, both personally and in my (former) profession. I married (the first time) at not quite 19 years old and became a mother at 20 and had my 2nd baby 2 years later. That marriage ended in divorce after about 8-9 years.
i am now married to my 2nd husband, coming up on our 19th anniversary and we have one child together who is a senior in high school.
I often feel like I’ve spent my whole life taking care of everyone but me! That sounds kind of selfish, however….which isn’t truly a fair representation. I have had it good compared to a lot of people! I think it’s just my nature to put others needs before my own, which can be said of lots of wives and mothers. And certainly some husbands and fathers fall into that category as well.
Anyway…I guess "barelyboxed" might sound like a guy name. What I was thinking at the time was that I am barely boxed, as in barely on Suboxone anymore, as I only take a small dose these days. Now that I think about it though….I guess it’s like being a "little bit pregnant!" Lol!
Happy Friday, everyone!

I knew it. That’s why I’m drawn to your posts! I like barelyboxed, it’s a good name but yeah, it doesn’t give anything away.

I’m a little out of practice with the whole caregiver thing. I spent my whole life taking care of others until this last handful of years. My husband has pretty much taken over the role. He’s pretty sensitive to my needs and I think he always knew that I needed to be cared for, for once. Besides being emotionally supportive, he does the cooking, laundry and most cleaning. It’s a miracle I got so lucky really. He draws the line at the litter box though. He has not cleaned the litter box in 6 years. LOL. Seriously though, I’m a little worried I’m out of practice. I’m going to have to shift back in the caretaker gear when we start a family and I’m rusty. That reminds me, I need to start cooking again…

Congratulations on 19 years.. you and Romeo are up there!! I love hearing this because so many couples don’t make it. It’s encouraging.

Another story.. my road to destruction and recovery

Author: tinydancer

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 12:54 pm

Romeo wrote:
I agree about the sense of humor, Tiny. I think my sense of humor is critical to my continued recovery.

*sigh*, it’s Friday and we’re celebrating with a cup of coffee….not quite how it used to be, eh? Laughing

Sense of humor = survival..lol.

No, not wuite how it used to be but I’ll tell you what, I really like my coffee these days. It feels so good to wake up fresh and only need a hot cup of coffee. I love it.

Barelyboxed wrote:
Tinydancer….I am a "she"….and I would definitely consider myself to be as you described, "sensitive & feminine." I’ve always been a caregiver, both personally and in my (former) profession. I married (the first time) at not quite 19 years old and became a mother at 20 and had my 2nd baby 2 years later. That marriage ended in divorce after about 8-9 years.
i am now married to my 2nd husband, coming up on our 19th anniversary and we have one child together who is a senior in high school.
I often feel like I’ve spent my whole life taking care of everyone but me! That sounds kind of selfish, however….which isn’t truly a fair representation. I have had it good compared to a lot of people! I think it’s just my nature to put others needs before my own, which can be said of lots of wives and mothers. And certainly some husbands and fathers fall into that category as well.
Anyway…I guess "barelyboxed" might sound like a guy name. What I was thinking at the time was that I am barely boxed, as in barely on Suboxone anymore, as I only take a small dose these days. Now that I think about it though….I guess it’s like being a "little bit pregnant!" Lol!
Happy Friday, everyone!

I knew it. That’s why I’m drawn to your posts! I like barelyboxed, it’s a good name but yeah, it doesn’t give anything away.

I’m a little out of practice with the whole caregiver thing. I spent my whole life taking care of others until this last handful of years. My husband has pretty much taken over the role. He’s pretty sensitive to my needs and I think he always knew that I needed to be cared for, for once. Besides being emotionally supportive, he does the cooking, laundry and most cleaning. It’s a miracle I got so lucky really. He draws the line at the litter box though. He has not cleaned the litter box in 6 years. LOL. Seriously though, I’m a little worried I’m out of practice. I’m going to have to shift back in the caretaker gear when we start a family and I’m rusty. That reminds me, I need to start cooking again…

Congratulations on 19 years.. you and Romeo are up there!! I love hearing this because so many couples don’t make it. It’s encouraging.

Twightlight Anesthesia on 5 yr Bupe-Maintained Patient

Author: jmdear

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 2:35 pm

Ok it is now going on day 4 and my whole body is pretty sore, in particular my neck and shoulders. I have had some anxiety since Tuesday and have felt pretty tense/stiff. If anyone is following this, I was wondering if this delayed WDS from not taking the sub(and the long half life) ? The other thing I am thinking is maybe a flu bug as its that time of year and my little girl just got over a viral cold. I hate the anxiety the worst. Just wondering if its from the decreased subs?

Twightlight Anesthesia on 5 yr Bupe-Maintained Patient

Author: jmdear

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 2:35 pm

Ok it is now going on day 4 and my whole body is pretty sore, in particular my neck and shoulders. I have had some anxiety since Tuesday and have felt pretty tense/stiff. If anyone is following this, I was wondering if this delayed WDS from not taking the sub(and the long half life) ? The other thing I am thinking is maybe a flu bug as its that time of year and my little girl just got over a viral cold. I hate the anxiety the worst. Just wondering if its from the decreased subs?

Down to .5 from 2 mg for 3 months…brain zaps?

Author: Danyellmcc1

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 3:13 pm

I am down to .5 and will be taking it for about 3 days then go down to .25 for another 3 days. I have been having these little brain zaps that I’ve had before when coming off Effexor. I’ve heard that the neurotransmitters need to get back to where they were. I will be starting my celexa after 3 weeks off antidepressants…what helps with the lethargy and the brain zaps and how long will they last? I haven’t been on subs long and I’m getting off because they have messed my stomach up and I just hate feeling bad.

Danielle

Down to .5 from 2 mg for 3 months…brain zaps?

Author: Danyellmcc1

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 3:13 pm

I am down to .5 and will be taking it for about 3 days then go down to .25 for another 3 days. I have been having these little brain zaps that I’ve had before when coming off Effexor. I’ve heard that the neurotransmitters need to get back to where they were. I will be starting my celexa after 3 weeks off antidepressants…what helps with the lethargy and the brain zaps and how long will they last? I haven’t been on subs long and I’m getting off because they have messed my stomach up and I just hate feeling bad.

Danielle

going back on opiates recreationally after suboxone

Author: glen bee

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 4:23 pm

Hi zesty,

You really came to the wrong forum to ask about this. Give blulight a try…

God bless you if you can recreationally take narcotics for fun but for what it’s worth you sound a lot like I did a few years before I was selling my possessions for drugs. You are going thru opiate withdrawal worrying about how soon you can get back to what put you there in the first place. If you truly can moderate, why not really put some more time between yourself and your dependence on opiates? I mean, the risk is just too high at this point IMO.

zesty wrote:
About a month or so ago i realized that i really should not be depending on these things for "happiness", daily satisfaction ect.

Anybody else on the forum every said this to themselves 1 or 2 (million) times?

-glen b

going back on opiates recreationally after suboxone

Author: glen bee

Posted: Fri Feb 22, 2013 4:23 pm

Hi zesty,

You really came to the wrong forum to ask about this. Give blulight a try…

God bless you if you can recreationally take narcotics for fun but for what it’s worth you sound a lot like I did a few years before I was selling my possessions for drugs. You are going thru opiate withdrawal worrying about how soon you can get back to what put you there in the first place. If you truly can moderate, why not really put some more time between yourself and your dependence on opiates? I mean, the risk is just too high at this point IMO.

zesty wrote:
About a month or so ago i realized that i really should not be depending on these things for "happiness", daily satisfaction ect.

Anybody else on the forum every said this to themselves 1 or 2 (million) times?

-glen b