Having to taper off suboxone on my own…

Author: Heathers74

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 8:59 pm

First of all, Im excited to see that there is this website for me to turn to…..people just like me. I just signed up and really could use some feedback.
I just moved from Alaska to Washington with my family. I have two kids, 8yrs and 7 months, both girls, thriving, doing great since their mommy has been clean thanks to suboxone. My issue is this; medicaid has been my insurance and has paid for my prescription for the past 2 years. Since moving to Wa, I called about 15 doctors before I learned that this state only covers my script if I am in in-patient treatment and only allows one to be on subs for 6 months, ect…..
so, here I am, with one weeks worth left, tapering myself off, trying to get my mind set right and pretty terrified off withdrawling…
Thank goodness for my supportive husband, without him I would be worse off. And so would my kids. Aside my feelings about the whole beauracracy about everything, I have to just focus on getting through this. I was only planning on being on suboxone for one more year for other reasons. Insurance so to speak…..whatever, deep down the choice is mine to manage my recovery on my own. Im still scared.
So, I found a general practitioner and suggested what I researched would help me, clonidine, klonipin, ect….this doctor knows nothing about suboxone or addiction, so im feeling sort of thrown to the wolves here. If there is any helpful feedback out there on anything I can do to detox as smoothly as possible, it would be appreciated.
I havent even finished reading what others have posted, but plan to.
Off to make some chow for my kids………………….thanks

Having to taper off suboxone on my own…

Author: Heathers74

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 8:59 pm

First of all, Im excited to see that there is this website for me to turn to…..people just like me. I just signed up and really could use some feedback.
I just moved from Alaska to Washington with my family. I have two kids, 8yrs and 7 months, both girls, thriving, doing great since their mommy has been clean thanks to suboxone. My issue is this; medicaid has been my insurance and has paid for my prescription for the past 2 years. Since moving to Wa, I called about 15 doctors before I learned that this state only covers my script if I am in in-patient treatment and only allows one to be on subs for 6 months, ect…..
so, here I am, with one weeks worth left, tapering myself off, trying to get my mind set right and pretty terrified off withdrawling…
Thank goodness for my supportive husband, without him I would be worse off. And so would my kids. Aside my feelings about the whole beauracracy about everything, I have to just focus on getting through this. I was only planning on being on suboxone for one more year for other reasons. Insurance so to speak…..whatever, deep down the choice is mine to manage my recovery on my own. Im still scared.
So, I found a general practitioner and suggested what I researched would help me, clonidine, klonipin, ect….this doctor knows nothing about suboxone or addiction, so im feeling sort of thrown to the wolves here. If there is any helpful feedback out there on anything I can do to detox as smoothly as possible, it would be appreciated.
I havent even finished reading what others have posted, but plan to.
Off to make some chow for my kids………………….thanks

Struggles in my eighth month

Author: chubbybaby82

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 9:37 pm

Hello everyone. Man this is the worst I felt through this whole process mentally. I hope I dont sound like a broken record, but man this sucks right now. I feel so negative. I feel like mentally I am craving more and more everyday. Im sure this is all in my head. I just dont want to relapse. I am so paranoid of it. I dont contact any drug dealers or anything. Sometimes though I am afraid I am going to snap. I hope this gets better. Is this common to think about opiates all day and feel crumby all the time?

Struggles in my eighth month

Author: chubbybaby82

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 9:37 pm

Hello everyone. Man this is the worst I felt through this whole process mentally. I hope I dont sound like a broken record, but man this sucks right now. I feel so negative. I feel like mentally I am craving more and more everyday. Im sure this is all in my head. I just dont want to relapse. I am so paranoid of it. I dont contact any drug dealers or anything. Sometimes though I am afraid I am going to snap. I hope this gets better. Is this common to think about opiates all day and feel crumby all the time?

Feels like a mental fog.

Author: Scorpiotl

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 11:50 pm

i am very depressed and upset. even 1/2 a strip is to much. i am throwing the prescription away. i think i am going to start over i feel really cloudy and depressed tonight. getting off of sub is the only thing keeping me going. i cant believe i turned back. This is not what i want out of my life. its weird how i am affected by it. It gave me the strength to want to live again and now that i have seen life again i want off of the sub…..i think my comfortable dose must be 1-2.5mg right now because i feel really oadd at 4

Feels like a mental fog.

Author: Scorpiotl

Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2013 11:50 pm

i am very depressed and upset. even 1/2 a strip is to much. i am throwing the prescription away. i think i am going to start over i feel really cloudy and depressed tonight. getting off of sub is the only thing keeping me going. i cant believe i turned back. This is not what i want out of my life. its weird how i am affected by it. It gave me the strength to want to live again and now that i have seen life again i want off of the sub…..i think my comfortable dose must be 1-2.5mg right now because i feel really oadd at 4