Author: jefferson310

Posted: Sun Apr 01, 2012 9:18 am

Hello everyone,

It’s been a while since posting so I’ll give a quick recap of what’s going on with my situation.
I’ve been an abuser of all drugs, alcohol, etc all my life and would regularly take pain meds of and on throughout. About 6 years ago I stopped everything(alcohol being the main problem) and was living a somewhat sober life. Every now and then I would get some pills but felt I was just fine. about 3 years ago I started having access to oxy 80’s and was abusing them for a year or so before I tried stopping. Boy did that not work. Long story short (i’ll elaborate in another post some day) I’ve been on Subs since September 2010. Started on 8mg, quickly jumped to 4 mg, then 3 mg, then in October 2012 I decided to try and stop. The worst experience of my life. (that’s all I can say about that at this time) I had no idea jumping from 3 mg would be this hard. During my misery I found this site and was encouraged to not give up and decided to re-sub up and now I’m currently on 1 mg.

I’m taking it very slow and very scared to go lower than 1mg(1/2 pill) I don’t feel great but can function. It’s been about 2 weeks and still feel unmotivated. I’m hoping my body will adjust and then i’ll go to .75mg and so on. I’m thinking no less than a month between jumps. I would like to go shorter but I don’t see myself functioning. My wife is expecting our first child in May so I’m afraid of not being strong during the first few months having a new-born in the house.

This forum has been a beacon of light to an otherwise lonely journey to recovery. I look forward to everyone’s input and suggestions.

BTW My Doctor is a wonderful, compassionate person and I am grateful for that, but he is against lifetime therapy and each visit is $150.00 plus meds (about $5) I have insurance but does not cover the visit or the suboxone. This is a major factor in my decision to recover quickly…