Author: kat7880
Posted: Fri Aug 31, 2012 12:42 pm
Hi everyone. I’m new here, very new. I’m lucky I found this site. It has made me feel somewhat better but I am still very nervous about D-day. I guess I need to start from the beginning for this to make sense… My husband and I had been addicted to heroin and dilaudid for several years. Last year I found out I was pregnant with my second daughter while I was in rehab getting help and was too scared of rejection and having my baby taken away to find a sub dr for myself so I found one for my husband and took half his rx the last month of my pregnancy & thru delivery (about 12mg a day). I never told my ob because I was taking it without an rx and was afraid of having her taken away. All the girls in rehab scared me to death of this. They told me horror stories and most of them were trying to get their babies back themselves. Well I delivered a beautiful and perfectly healthy baby girl one month after getting off the H and on the subs. Absolutely NO signs of NAS. The nurses even commented that she was the best baby in the nursery. Well a year later we decided that it has been such a wonderful experience having her that we wanted to give her a younger sister so now Im pregnant again. I got my own sub doctor shortly after my 1 yr old was born and have been prescribed subutex since I got pregnant. Well my prescribing doctor never told me the risks of having a baby on subutex so I guess I was kinda ignorant to it causing all this NAS stuff. And since my other baby came out fine I just didn’t know. Well Now Im 3 weeks away from my due date and once again have not told my ob that I am on subutex. I know some of you will strongly disagree with my decision but I have heard so many stories about how the nursing staff, just by knowing your on the meds, will make up symptoms or make a huge deal out of every spit up and burp, then pump your baby full of methadone or worse, morphine, which could make her very ill after being on subs! Well, now to my biggest worry– I know my last baby was fine, but I had only been on subs for one month when I had her…. Now Ive been on it for the whole pregnancy. I started out on 24 mg’s and have backed myself down to 8 mgs a day but I cant seem to get lower than that. I tried jumping from 16 to 4 and just got very lethargic and exhausted so I bumped back to 8mg which I have stayed on now for 2 weeks. I just dont want my baby to be in pain or have NAS. She is so little and innocent and doesn’t deserve that. I wish to God I had just gotten off it. And that was my plan for this week until I read that one cant come off it in the 3rd trimester without hurting the baby. I don’t know what to do. Should I go through the w/ds and just get off or keep lowering myself down even though it makes me sick? How can I keep her from going thru w/d’s, and will she even have w/d’s? And what if she does, what do I tell my Dr? I just dont know if anything is for sure right now…. Please some one ease my mind…