Author: relivinglife
Posted: Sun Jul 28, 2013 9:54 am
Hello. I am new on this Forum and hoping this will be a good place for support and answers. A little about me and my background.
I started taking Hydro’s a few years back when everything got out of control. At my highest I was taking 8-10 a day. Once I realized that I was not going to be able to fulfill that need of meds I started with the withdraws. Which was HELL.. We all know what and how they feel so I won’t go into that. I looked online for help with WD’s and came across this med called Suboxone. I called a doctor in my area who prescribes this to see if they could help me. They started me off on 8mg once a day. I did the take half the film in the morning and other at night. I don’t really remember about that time I guess I shoved the memory out of my mind.
As it went on I thought I was just fine so I took myself off of it. BAD Idea!!
I ended up using again 8 months down the road. Not nearly where I was but I was using and I didn’t need them.
Now I started abusing Tramadol. When the doctor told me it was not a Narcotic I thought ok I won’t abuse them, it won’t get me "energy" as opiates gave me. Well that was a complete lie. I did get that feeling and ended up taking 400mg a day. I thought I could just end them with no withdrawals and that was wrong too.
I finally looked at myself and the others in my life and said I had to stop this. There has to be a way where I can enjoy my life and energy I do have without the help of the "little white pills"
I have stared back on Sub now. I am on day 3 and not sure what is going on. Since I don’t remember the previous time I don’t know if what I am feeling is normal.
When I take the 1st half about 30-45 mins later I am extremely tired. My heart races and I am somewhat confused. I thought maybe that the dose was to high so today (3rd day) I have cut that in half. I will take 4 small slips throughout the day. I know it takes 3 days for something to take in effect so I am hoping I didn’t screw up my getting better.
All I want is to get my life back in order. I have also set up counciling this time around.
I hope someone out there has went through the same or somewhat the same thing and can give a bit of advice.
Thank you for reading