Author: chaimeragiest
Posted: Sun Dec 30, 2012 6:57 am
First off it’s obvious i got a little internal battle with this drug. But i’d like to first off say thanks a lot to subdoc for responding whether or not he likes anything i am saying is beyond the point. I got a fair amount of respect for him within the last few days considering he is tackling all the bitches, gripes, and compliants i’ve had since the get go of my "treatment" Three damn doctors would not give me the time of day or even attempt to tackle any of what i am saying. So again, i’ve watched a few of your videos and i do commend you for being what i thought going into this thing should have been like from the start. Sadly, you need to be rattling your comrades to there senses. Seriously. If you take nothing else from my negativity or however im being perceived. Please do me that favor?
Teejay i never tried herion. I’ve done methadone, fentanyl, hydromorphone, opana, morphine, oxycodone, hydrocodone. Ya know all the pill junk. But mainly i was scripted 90mg oxycodone. I turned that after 4 months to running low and taking upwards to 200-300mg at my lowest. I was using to stay from w/d. But when i first went and got hook up on this suboxone stuff. This is one thing i have never tried as it wasn’t big in my part of florida yet. Ever since all these sub clinics opened to counter the "pain clinics" which is where i was scripted the oxy. Suboxone now goes street value the same as a oxy ir 30. It’s freaking insane. It’s like watching florida where i’ve grown up. Sprout pain clinics overnight. and then there was this big oxy epidemic going on. Know after a few years of letting everyone ruin themselves on this crap. Suboxone clinics/docs start popping up to counteract the pill mill clinics. I just don’t see a damn difference watching this unfold. And in retrospect me going to the pain clinic put me where i am now. NOW, i’m saddened by the fact that this just seems like more of the same crap. Only difference is i don’t get sick as fast as i did with oxy.
Basically I FEEL as though it is a cop out. My first dose i know this stuff was bad business. Aside from the horrible experience of obtaining this drug. Dosing it hit me harder and longer then oxycodone hit me in a long time. I knew this stuff was trouble. BIG TROUBLE. Here i am taking it still. I’m not getting as buzzed off it as i was. But still. This stuff is powerful. And i know im basically still not making progress in regards to stopping being on opiates. I feel as though i am dug way deeper then i was before. and it bothers me every time i take some.
110mg of methadone? Ouch! And what you said about stronger cravings to use and it created serious changes in your brain. That is a awesome way to sum up my worst fears of taking this daily. : ‘ (
"that is why many countries call it Opioid Replacement Therapy (ORT) – or Substitution Pharmacotherapy. But considering it a cop out is just a poor indictment on yourself ain’t it? Oh sorry, you’re not using Suboxone as an addiction treatment. You’re not kidding yourself with that game. You’re using it to get high!! If you weren’t, you woulda asked your doctor for a dose reduction by now."
Opiate replacement therapy…. That right there sums up the cop out attitude im showing. and yes it is a poor indictment on me and i admit it hurts me on a daily basis to think about it. You may or may not understand it if your in the blissfull land of supposed recovery when were really not differing at all. it’s not abuse. It’s a tool for recovery.. Blah blah blah. Get the idea? I’m prescribed way more to begin with. So eh. i though abusing it is taking more or diverting your stuff? I’ve diverted a few extras when i wasn’t on the patient assistance program to cover the costs of doctors appt. Figured he is used to taking dirty money anyway. You get the idea. Forget dependent or addicted. I’m hooked on this crap. I actually don’t misuse it in anyway. i take it the right way and all. Unless you count using cotton balls, high proof alcohol, and suboxone as abuse..?