Author: amber4.14.11

Posted: Sat Oct 13, 2012 12:36 am

Brettskee5 wrote…………
I still do have that concern about being on suboxone for a long time. 1/2 of me feels, no big deal, if I can afford it then what is the downside? I feel good, don’t feel high, have energy. On the other hand part of me feels like maybe I am not myself, or maybe I feel guilty for taking a cop out.

I can relate to this feeling. . . . I mean, obviously it’s too late for me,,,, Im coming up on 18 months on suboxone. But, I can relate to going back and forth about the decision to continue or not. . . .
Thing is, I have gone a few days without taking it, and even a week a couple times.
For me,
I actually feel more than I ever have before. Emotions I mean. Now that’s not to say,,, I wouldnt feel even more when completely off suboxone………we’ve had a lot of people come on here and say that everything feels sharper, brighter, ETC when they jump off. So, I try to have an open mind.

And I even feel guilty sometimes, that I’ve found something that works for me, and Im not ‘white knuckling’ it like so many people have to.

I dont think I really have a point. Just wanted to say I can completely relate.
EACH one of us is totally different, and so was/is our addiction, and I think you definitely have to take that into consideration.
Any person would call me a ‘chronic relapser’ before suboxone.

Oh well, this is working for me, and Im happier than Ive ever been.
that’s gotta count for something