Author: SouthJaxBeach

Posted: Mon Jan 21, 2013 11:57 am

I just realized I passed 60days of no subs, no opiates!!! It’s been like 63days – can’t believe I can say this! I don’t have anything crazy or unusual to talk about just trying to keep the good vibes going. I’ve managed to get back into the gym this past month which feels more awesome than ever both mentally and physically. I had some cravings for weeks after stopping, but they seem to have let up a bit? I had never thought to myself that I cannot take another pill, ever…but that’s the mindset I’ve developed recently. I’m a strong person, but I’ve started telling myself(and actually believing myself) that I can never take another opiate recreationally again…I can’t do it/I won’t do it.

I’ve been reading some motivational articles(not drug related) for fun and watched a few speakers on youtube. Great stuff that’s helped me reflect on what’s really important in life and what truly makes us happy. I’ve never really thought about these sort of things before? One point that recently stuck out was that it’s impossible to have good feelings without having bad feelings…we can’t selectively numb/medicate only our bad feelings. When we numb our negative feelings, we’re also numbing our ability to create positive feelings. I guess we’ve got to learn to take the good with the bad – which really ties into the whole being sober thing lol.

Anyways, I think it’s finally safe to say I’m happier now than I ever was while on Subs. There have been a lot of up and down days. It’s not like you wake up one day and your better and everything is gravy…it takes some time and I feel like I’m still on a slow upward trend…I think the best days are still on the horizon.

Slow down and smile

p.s. if anyone’s curious I posted about the last 3 months of my taper and first weeks stopping in the in the stopping sub section (Final taper thread- the process) I think it was called.