Author: Brown Eyed Girl
Posted: Sat Jul 27, 2013 2:24 pm
Hi Amy. Thank you so much for your reply. I was beginning to wonder if my thread was in the wrong spot or something like that. I guess I could have provided additional information in my first post also. Let me give a few other details and see what happens. I’ll try to keep it short.
I’m 33 and been an addict for over 15 years using all kinds of different drugs. Narcotic pills were definitely my drug of choice. I was taking upwards of 400-600mgs per day of Vicodin, Perc’s, Methadone, etc, etc, etc. Tried quitting many, many times and kept relapsing over and over. I lost nearly everything that was important in my life and finally hit "rock bottom" at that point. Had a nasty Benzo habit also which is the worst drug to get free from.
I have tried both NA and AA in the past, and they both did help, but I just never really wanted to remain clean before. Well I can assure you that I do now! A friend suggested I give Suboxone a try as she had been successful with it. I guess the sub doctor put me on too much of the sub (24mgs) in the beginning. He also told me to wait only 8-12 hours from my very last dose of narcotics before coming in and being inducted in his office. Turns out that wasn’t nearly long enough and I went into Precipated Withdrawals. Thought I was going to die I was so sick, being in bed for days. After stopping the subs entirely at that point, I waited longer and was inducted again. Still too high, but I was again put on 24mgs per day for about 3 years.
I began tapering the dose on my own without his knowledge and got down to the 2mg dose I’m now on. Tried jumping from there as I said but that was nearly impossible for me and always had to get right back on that 2mg dose where I am right now.
To answer your question why I am so impatient, I just want my life back Amy. I have recovered from my years of drug abuse financially, and I’m actually quite healthy and in good shape physically. Now I want to get my friends back, and have family members want me around at different functions instead of me being the one they never wanted to be in attendance. I don’t want to TELL them I’m clean and a new person, I want to SHOW them all I am with my actions, not words.
That link to the RX Cutting Plan is awesome Amy! Thanks for providing me with that! I’m going to definitely take your advice and taper from the 2mg I’m now on too using that plan! I see the 2mg sub films are the same exactl size as the 8mg ones. No sense using 8mg film when it would be so much easier to use and cut those 2mg ones into tiny doses. I have plenty of 8mg films saved up as I have been tapering without the doctors knowledge. I wonder if the pharmacy will let me swap some 8mg films for some of the 2mg ones? Probably not, but I know the sub doctor will give me those anyway if I ask him. He’s pretty easy going and I’m sure he will give me the 2mg film if I ask him.
I’m going with my friend to her next NA meeting also. I’m going to use every tool at my disposal this time around to remain clean. Can’t tell you how much I appreciate your reply. You have provided me with valuable info which I intend to use to the best of my ability. Thank you again so much! 
Karen