Author: invisiblemovement

Posted: Sat Nov 03, 2012 5:49 pm

Yes I have thought a lot about going to a doctor. I have been on subs for slightly more than a year now and I want to try quitting before going to a doctor. I’m not really sure if a doctor would accept me even — they may think, "How can you have a drug problem doing 1 mg of suboxone or less every day? That is what my patients jump from." Or maybe they won’t, I don’t know. I don’t have the money so I’m going to try jumping myself first. I guess I just freaked out too much… I realize the time to quit is now. I felt claustrophobic since the only person I have to talk about this stuff to is locked away and well, as a female — I need to talk about it lol

I don’t believe there is a chance of relapse to things other than subs. That is why I deleted all my numbers. I mean yeah I could go visit people but would rather not, as I don’t want to look like the scraggly people that used to show up on my doorstep. Not that I blame them — it did cross my mind, and we all know how bad the urge gets. And my friend… well, I have a feeling he’s going to be locked up for a long time. But yes I have wanted to go to a doctor very badly over the past year, just to stop worrying, "Am I doing this right? What should my dose be? I want to consult a professional".