Author: pitbullmomma34

Posted: Sat May 25, 2013 6:31 am

This makes the sixth year that I have been dealing with this in addiction form or recovery. My husband told me last night the main reason that he works is to make sure that I get my medication and that I wasn’t sick all the time. Im not sure if I just got lucky with having an awesome man, he brings tears to my eyes almost everytime just because of how he has stood beside me through everything in our lives.
To me, regardless of what you go through in life if she had wanted to stand beside you she WOULD STILL be there. I know some people don’t have the patience, and you cant blame for that BUT its hard to just say that its the medications fault. You took it for that period of time, you didn’t have to do so. You "could" have given it up, but its a choice that is hard to make for whatever reason. Some think that its too hard to do, and I feel the same. I told him last night that I would like to be off around New Years. I don’t want to go through tapering during the holidays, but I will also say that withdrawals are hard and you should have been informed of this before you decided to come off. Maybe you just didn’t come off a low enough dose, some people don’t have any problem, some have a major problem coming off of it.
My husband and I have came up with a way to do this and we hope that it might work. I will taper off and come off completely, but when I get sick I will take just a crumb and hopefully that might curb some of it. I know back years ago when I was taking it off the street, I would buy a pill and take it over a weeks time and it never bothered me. So maybe this might work, it might not but my system did it before, we are hoping it works again.
The sickness from Suboxone is horrid, I know believe me I have been through it. I think the depression is the worst part, but nothing to me is worse than searching for pills and spending your last 20 bucks on however many Lortabs you can score.
I went through two weeks of hell after jumping down from 16mg, swore that I was dying and I will never jump from that amount again.
But the expensive doctor appointments are getting to be too much and I could really do a lot with 300 a month. Hubby says that it doesn’t matter the cost, but I cant think that way because I have always a coupon clipper, penny saver and it kills me to hand them that money order every month.