Author: Untitled

Posted: Tue Mar 26, 2013 10:36 pm

I don’t know why I’m posting because I don’t know that anyone can offer insight to my situation.

I went for my appointment today. The blood panel showed a few things that didn’t surprise me much. The source of my pain is evident. Some issues I was unaware of, but what really surprised me was, I was told it appears I have sleep apnea. I’m going to be tested, but the doc wouldn’t prescribe sub because of the associated respiratory depression.

WHAT?!?! I have debated this internally to my core, only to be told "no go"? I am basically opiate naive at this point. I don’t believe the good doc would have written sub if I had told him, thank you for your time. I am leaving to eat loads of hydros now.

Does anyone have sleep apnea, take benzos and opiate naive wanting to get on sub? Am I the only freak in my boat? Wouldn’t surprise me.

I have no fear taking full agonists. What is the difference? I am frustrated and feel like my every effort to get myself right has gone completely wrong. I am lost. Maybe that would have been a better name for me.

As I am typing this, a turn to help commercial came on.

Those actors seemed normal. I don’t relate. My sister was on sub after methadone and jumped off sub successfully (but no walk in the park) and has been clean 7 years. She doesn’t know what to tell me and she’s so removed and anti-opiate (good on her, I am proud). I don’t talk to her about it much because she has the attitude "if I could do it anyone can" and I LOVE HER STRENGTH…but not much guidance there. I am exhausted.

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