Author: Romeo

Posted: Fri Oct 21, 2011 4:44 pm

Hey exorphin, it’s not that I can’t afford some of those workbooks, my problem is more along the lines of me being as stubborn as a donkey. I have made a lot of progress in my recovery, but I would be WAY further ahead of the game if I wasn’t so stubborn. I’m one of these people who learns his lessons the hard way. I wish I could just listen to others advice and run with it, but I don’t. That’s just where I’m at in my recovery at the moment. Thank you for wishing me good luck. I appreciate it.

Hey Ironic, I’ve been off of all drugs for about a year and a half. During that time, I’ve had three short relapses. 4 days on the first one, 9 days on the second one and 1 day with the last one……trouble is, the last one almost killed me. I think that’s where a lot of Hat’s concern is coming from. Relapsing on pain pills is like throwing the dice, you never know when it’s gonna come up craps!! But at the same time, I do have more tools in place today to prevent a relapse, I did do the right thing by telling my wife. Months and months ago, I would have snuck into the doctor and got what I wanted or got it off the streets.

It’s funny how I don’t crave weed or cocaine at all. I lOVED those drugs too. Why are opiates my big problem???

I know when I hurt myself, I tend to justify the use of pain pills……because they’re used to treat pain!! I figure, I’m in pain, use pain pills. I guess I can’t find a reason to justify using weed or cocaine, though. I wonder if that made any sense or is that my addict brain talking again??

Anyhoo, gotta keep working on my recovery, even though I don’t want to because it’s a drag.