Author: bones99
Posted: Wed Mar 06, 2013 6:56 pm
I know one thing friends and neighbors ! Ive been off oxys for 3 weeks now . I havent been this clean since 1990 thats right i said 1990. And furthermore im down to 4mg per day. I can feel the difference in myself i hear birds chirping again im noticing things i havent noticed in a long long time i can see the light at the end of the tunnel . Gone are the days of wondering how i was gonna score some opiates and hand over hundreds of hard earned dollars per week . Gone are the days of counting my frickin pills while i plotted to re-up before i was even out .Point is folks this suboxone drug has given me a way out its not a magic bullet but it works. Im using it as a tool to figure out why i want to use so much and to help me gently get back to normal. Side effects …..sure why not coca cola has side effects . Bigest one for me is the social anxiety but i can cope with that and ive had that my entire life not sure if its the sub or some underlying issue but thats for me and my therapist to sort out .i had big anxiety when i was using as well ….small trade off. I still have allot of work to do as most of you know if you are serious about getting clean there is allot of work to do . All i know is ive tried to kick before many times ive went through being sick for days and i would say i would never use again but i always went back for more punishment. This time is different with suboxone i can feel my brain getting back to normal. I used to reach for a pill with my coffee in the morning now i go well into the day before i even think about it . Around 3pm i start to feel like i need a little something or want a lil something. Before i would seek oxys morphine perks whatever ya know the deal . Now i take suboxone and i can go about my day . One day i will not need the suboxone but for now im glad i have it until i do the work and gain skills to live sober . Lets keep it positive people ! This is hard enough lets not squable with eachother most of us are in the same boat. We need one another . Thanks for the information im glad i didnt get off suboxone to soon. I think, just my opionion i wasnt feeling good at first due to the higher dose .as i drop i feel better things are balancing out. Ty everyone