Author: Shytype
Posted: Tue Dec 18, 2012 12:31 pm
To the op: I feel for you so deeply. I spent 9 mo agonizing over being pregnant and on sub, I did not enjoy my pregnancy as a result. I just had my baby 1 week ago(I posted my birth story earlier today 12.18.12. I ultimately chose to tell pretty much everyone involved w my preg about sub including my boyfriend who has a very stern view of drug abuse, etc. I had become addicted to Vicodin, legally prescribed. I hated always worrying about next rx, etc so decided to go on sub. It was only after I started sub that I came clean to him. The disease of addiction is so riddled w deception as it is, I was just tired of hiding. I however, understand your decision. I came close to the same. Fortunately this all came out prior to learning we were having a baby. Here’s the thing, I just want to prepare you that if you did tell OB I think it would be hard for your bf not to hear of it somehow during your hospital stay. If the ob knows, the entire care team for you and baby will be informed. I had a visit from social services while bf was in room. The babies pediatrician (hospital appointed) mentioned it several times during exam, in front of bf. Now in my case I never asked that they not talk in front him so perhaps that’s why, I just think it would’ve been impossible to keep concealed. My sub use was a predominant theme during my hospital stay. I know that in my state, many hospitals (up to hospital) automatically test for a wide spectrum of drugs. I can’t be sure if sub is included but the rn’s I had indicated they suspect far more L and D patients are on it then what they are told. Because I was honest, I got a visit from social services, a rough initial visit w the hospital pediatrician, and my child went to nicu for 4 additional days-I was on .06 mg btw. He not once presented w NAS. He is doing beautifully. Every time he sneezed (not often) or fussed while in hospital I panicked he’d get scored for NAS. It was beyond stressful, I went off the emotional cliff unfortunately. Im torn as to what I might of done different. I believe it’s a personal choice. I’ll spare you the do what’s best for baby, I refuse to insult you in that way. You have a lot of time on this, you mentioned 30 wks? Perhaps you could try to do a slow taper. I was so scared of hurting the baby that I didn’t jump completely off. As I said I got down to .06 mg. I was tired, had mild rls, and mild anxiety. I never let it get beyond that. I wish you the best, I have tremendous empathy for you. I regret that we still have so long to go in accepting that the disease of addiction doesn’t indicate a flaw in ones character. Best of everything to you and your baby.