Author: smithjm

Posted: Wed Nov 30, 2011 12:51 pm

Hi all. I need help, not criticism or put downs. So please save that for someone else. I have been on sub’s since July. Started on 16 mg’s and have tapered to 8mg’s a day. My problem, I have had my boyfriend keeping them under lock and key as I have no control. Being an addict I get it into my head that if one is good two is better and so on. I have decided that I wanted control and that I needed to get control. So I got my RX on the 22 of Nov. and I am now down to 7 full 8mg’s and 8 2mg’s as I took some and cut them into 2mg’s thinking that I could take 2mg’s here and there and then on my last 7 days before my next apt on the 22 Dec. It would be all hunk dory. The thing is my BF does not know and I fear the criticism I will get from him. I have let him down so much in the past as it is and it just hurts to think of doing it again…. Why did I do it…..? God if I knew that I would not be here asking for help… This just proves that I cannot control them myself. Thanks.