Author: Goinstrong

Posted: Sat Sep 22, 2012 7:46 am

Hey Lily and Diary. Thank you so much for taking the time to read that, and replying.

My mom is something else. She will not go to Alanon because~"I’m not going to Alanon, I wouldn’t learn a thing…I would TEACH them things." I kid you not. She thinks that she knows everything there is to know about addiction just because I am an addict. It’s frustrating, and sickening at times.

I guess I want to know what I can do for myself. I’m sorry if I sound selfish, but for the past 3 months or so, I have been the person who has to listen to all of this. And my mom acts like I OWE her that. Just because of what I put HER through. Because of what I did to HER. This is all about my mom. Everything and anything that happens to anyone, is about her. It’s irritating to say the least. When I was in rehab, I had a meeting with her and my therapist to confront her on this behavior. She told my therapist and I~"I’m 58 years old, this is the way I am. I am the mother, and she (MEANING ME) has to respect me. I don’t have to respect her. I am not changing who I am, she should change who she is for me. I’m the mom." She is fucking crazy sometimes. I cannot believe the shit that comes out of her mouth most of the time. It’s embarassing.

So, yeah, I know that my mom does in fact need Alanon, and I do know that my aunt needs help. But I don’t have the first clue what to do for myself in all this. I try to distance myself, but feel bad for my mother, because she doesn’t have anyone to talk to about it. My aunt is her only sister. She doesn’t have any super close friends. I don’t know….I’m just looking for advice on how to help myself here….