Author: tinydancer

Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2013 11:45 am

Don’t beat yourself up for your slip. Feelings of guilt and shame just aid in the desire to use and ‘feel better.’ That is the cycle. Just know that we’ve all been there, myself included. Hopefully this slip will be your last. I remember my last slip. I was a little ways into my sub maintenance (during the 1st year) and I went out on a little binge for the night in NYC. I felt so awful and couldn’t believe it what I had done. I remember the next morning, trying to get out of the city as fast as I could. I was living a state over at the time. I remember thinking about the whole situation and wondering why I even put myself through it. I didn’t have any fun. I didn’t enjoy the high. I was creeped out by the people I was hanging with. I felt awful the next day. I clearly remember asking myself ‘what positives are in this situation?’ I couldn’t come up with any. I promised myself that would be the last time but I know in my heart I didn’t believe myself because I had made that promise so many times. I never would have guessed, back then, that that would be my last slip.

You never know, just think positive and look towards the future. Good luck with your doc appointment and with the test. How are you feeling today?