Author: NoRegret03

Posted: Wed Nov 30, 2011 12:36 pm

Thank you guys so much…. Since I was 18 (26now) I’ve always used alcohol or drugs for one reason or the other… mostly because of the confidence I gain when high.. I thought i was ready to get off this stuff and get ready for the next chapter…but the feeling of emptiness/hollowness I felt last week was a humbling eye opener… I am going to re-think getting off over Christmas.. I am going to taper lower and longer just to make sure theres no chances of set back again…I feel like I set myself back a little by attempting to jump off from 2mg to nothing last week… Because of you guys comments I am strongly going to reconsider.. I honestly, can’t remember what it felt like to be drug/alcohol free… I used to give credit to drugs getting me through 5 years of college! how stupid/sad is that!. .. Drugs/Partying/Alcohol became my identity as sad as that is!.. and i felt really comfortable with that. Its challenging to face life in your own skin and completely vulnerable… Sub has given me my old self and confidence back. I am very thankful for that…. I just can’t help but feel discouraged because I feel like 2.5 years is a long time to be on this medication..but this site has gave me alot of confidence and insight on tapering.. im glad i found this community..thank you guys for the replies and thoughts.