Author: Jimmy

Posted: Tue Feb 14, 2012 12:27 am

Definitely not foolish. Thinking we will live without suboxone is hopful, optimistic, and certainly a bit daunting. Last time I tried it (about a week ago) on day 2 that old FEAR came rushing in like a tidal wave. I wasn’t feeling too bad, but the thought of feeling bad, the thought of not having taken any opiate for the first two days since six years of daily use (agonists and suboxone throughout) was almost paralyzing me with dread. My thoughts were racing, I convinced myself I didn’t feel "right" and took some sub. THis panic episode was probably 90% mental and 10% physical. But now I am better prepared for next time.The only way we lose is if we quit trying. I will never quit trying. I lived 90% of my life without opiates – I can do it again. Never say never.