Author: Downtime

Posted: Sat Nov 17, 2012 11:17 am

so 30 days after 3years @ 16mg w/ no breaks – Completely changed my life. I was looking for a detox med not a methadone treatment. Very very very frustrated at my current situation. R&B down play this drug and represent it so incorrectly. Very little long term clinical studies done.

Beefs with inpatient detox. Ok this is my opinion, but i have sound justification for this.
Inpatient detox scam and a joke. While no one pushed me into this again they give you so much miss-information (lie about stupid shit) they make it seem like a good choice but i had my doubts. They tell me 90% of people relapse after treatment………….
Firstly, i feel like its a bad enviroment to be in. Not peaceful. Most people in there are court ordered. I heard about shit people were doing with drugs, for drug, that i could hardly even believe. I met 3 people in there that died the second day they left treatment…
Secondly, the medical treatment to me made me extreamly angry. I tapered myself down from 16 to around 2mgs, first day i got in they wanted to up my dose immediatly back to 8mg > and talking to dr he say casually youll be back to normal in 5 days. I kinda went off on him after this as i knew this was big mistake. I needed a prolonged taper. I was sick as shit. I couldnt get the drugs i needed for wd without having to fight for them, and when i say drugs i mean ibprofen or tums. They wouldnt let you leave until 48 hours after your last dose. I hated the way they treated my like i was a homeless uneducated crack head drs and medical staff that is oh and so many drs they just throw you into a rotation you cant get a relation with anyone. As for my tapering i quickly realized im fucked no matter what i did while i was in there; when it came time for the jump that is. I tried to get them to only give me .5mg then .25mg. Again a fight insued drs and nursing telling me its impossible to dose that low and they telling me its all in my head… 1mg was lowest they go (they wanted to keep me at 1mg for a while imo not mattering as i was a 30 day detox). So after day 5 and fight for lower dosage i said fuck this and refused all medication… i felt like i was going to die honestly. Left after 9 days as i had enough of them telling me i need further treatment and half way houses all their other bullshit. Their reward system for phones was horse shit to me cause i couldnt even get out of bed so i couldnt use my phone. it is extremely wrong the way they shut you off from the world when i left there i havent talked to anyone in more that a week i couldnt make arrangement’s to stay anywhere kind of just kicking you out the door fucking me over even more, no clue where i was at only somewhere in flordia. Oct 24 was last dose.

Now heres where the real beef comes in, fast forward to nov 17 (25 DAYS have not relapsed only taking vitamins), still in wd and I CAN NOT SUPPORT MYSELF still laying in bed alot, no end insight. Fast taper = hell. Obviously there is no advoiding wd no matter what regardless of what the drs and pharm companies try and feed you, but a longer taper would have resulted in less suffering impossible to do inpatient. Again i made another bad choice on being misinformed. I think im going to stop making decision all together lol. After affect of treatment is horrendous. How long till i can return to work and do the things i used to do. Im going to give it another month and then i can not and will not keep laying around if i have to go back to viciodon then so be it but subs are the worst. I dont want to be on anything but what other options do i have if i want a life.

Will i be a pile of shit for months until this bs wears off, its not looking promising nearly 30 days in.