Author: Amy-Work In Progress

Posted: Tue Sep 04, 2012 3:13 am

Can I ask you something Bboy? What drug were you on when you started taking sub, and was there a huge difference to you emotionally between the two? And you’re now on methadone, right? Obviously you feel like you have your emotional life back, at least somewhat. Is the emotional numbing not a side effect of methadone and all opiates, or just in different degrees? Also, if someone told you, "You’re on methadone, so you’re living in an emotionless haze," would that bother you?

I’m truly curious about how different people feel on different opiates. Also, the reason I sometimes don’t like this type of thread is because someone will come along and make a blanket statement about everyone who is on sub, like the one I made up about methadone. I wish everyone could just share their own experience. Instead we get people telling us, "This was my experience, so it is your experience as well." I think that’s what most people find objectionable about these kinds of threads. I’m fine with being warned that this is a possible effect of suboxone, but I don’t want to be told what I am or am not feeling.

I don’t know if I’m more numb than usual on sub. I do know that I laugh heartily, I love deeply, and I feel emotional pain far more often than I want to. Still, I have an open mind that I could feel even more once I’m off sub. Time will tell.

Amy