Author: musiclover

Posted: Tue Jul 23, 2013 5:47 pm

DAY 40!
I can honestly say I feel like a normal human being!!!!! I’m having "normal" people problems. Like, I actually CRY at shit a woman would cry at! I laugh hysterically. I sweat like I used to and LOL I never thought I’d be excited about that.

People are actually complimenting me again. I hadn’t heard my eyes were beautiful in nearly four years! I’m awake when I wake up instead of wanting to sleep 10 more hours. I have energy to go tanning, take my son to the park or museum or WHEREVER, go shopping, cook dinner, CLEAN LIKE AN OCD PERSON AGAIN. I mean wow. I’m living!!!!!

I never knew the effect suboxone truly had over me. I felt normal because I wasn’t high. But I was far from normal. FAR. I’m sure some people use suboxone and don’t have side effects, or have good side effects. But subs made me extremely exhausted, lazy, bitchy, depressed, constipated, and generally not me and unhealthy. I swear they fucked up my teeth and canceled out my epidural too. But hey whatever! I’m CLEAN & feeling damn good!!!!!! 28 months free of opiates, 40 days free of subs, and 20 days high on life!

THANK YOU to the people of this forum. You truly helped me save my life.