Author: qhorsegal2

Posted: Fri Mar 08, 2013 3:31 pm

Hello all…

I have been a member of this forum in the past. I changed email accounts and lost my password so had to create a new profile. My old user name was Qhorsegal.

I have not posted in a long time so just to update everyone. I am currently prescribed 2mg per day. When I began the program exactly one year ago this month I started with 8mg once per day. I have come a long way, but I have been far from perfect. I have had alot of trouble with my taper and have run out of meds early several times.

Well this past month was terrible. I went out of town for a whole month to take care of a family member and did not stick to my prescribed dose and have just been through 7 days of withdrawal hell. Honestly it caught me a little off guard because I really didn’t expect the withdrawal to be so bad coming from such a low dose. Now my doctor has told me if I run out early again I will be kicked out of the program… and I have been given only 3 months to complete my taper. So I am kind of freaking out. My husband went with me to this last appointment and he is in control of giving me my meds from now on. So I know I will be able to stick to the proper dosage. I am just scared to death now that I am going to feel like I just did when I finish my taper.

Honestly, if I have to go through this again I’m not sure if I can make it. I am so sick of being sick, any encouragement out there? I have to get clean….but crap it is so hard!!!!!!