Author: cire113

Posted: Thu Aug 30, 2012 9:57 pm

Im not gonna lie to myself I’m am definitely not clean on Suboxone..

Sub is a very powerful OPIOD.. period.. Yes a lot of the addictive behaviors are gone when stabilized on maintenance but the fact is i am still physically/psychologically addicted to opiates… I must take an opiate everyday to function and feel normal..

Also with sub the blood levels can remain pretty even and it feels "normal" to be in that state.. but i know for me that state is far from "normal"

Actually to me how i feel on sub maintenance compared to being totally "sober" is a completely different world its scary… Sub definitely dampens my emotions and puts me in a "fog"…

With all this being said though I think this medication is a Godsend for people to live a relatively "normal" life who were hardcore addicts and tried everything to quit..

Sub maintenance should not be taken 90% of cases and I believe only be used when all other methods have failed miserably; It is not to be taken lightly.. Sub really should be primarily used a short term detox tool.

Yes i know I’m not 100% clean but do i feel bad or guilty about taking my sub every day?

Hell no because Sub is saving my life.. Without sub I would be dead for sure by now;

I just gotta be honest with myself and stop beating me up for taking a medication that giving me life