Author: Romeo

Posted: Wed Jan 18, 2012 11:11 am

Slipper, you seem to have touched on a subject that affects many of us in recovery, thanks again for bringing it up.

I agree with everyting Dairy Queen said too, when I was in active addiction, my hobby was chasing down drugs or doing drugs and trying like hell not to get caught. Now that I’m not doing drugs and don’t have all that activity in my life, I don’t know what the hell to do with myself?? Not only do I not know what to do (because I don’t know WTH I like or dislike), but I have a bitch of a time with my interpersonal skills. Communicating with people on the forum is easy, I can take as long as I like to formulate a reply. Communicating in real life is a lot harder, it’s like I’m always afraid something completely stupid is gonna come flying out of my mouth and then the person I’m talking to will know just how weird I really am? BUT, like DQ basically said, the only way to get better is go through it….don’t go around it, don’t go under it…..go through it. Get up and do something, it feels uncomfortable as hell at first, but it’s how we get better.

I still suck at doing most of that stuff, but I’m at least trying it. I have faith I’ll get better at it one day. Like so many people say, this recovery shit is a process, not a destination. I’m really beginning to despise processes!!!