Author: slipper
Posted: Tue Dec 13, 2011 2:39 pm
| slipper wrote: |
| Ok I go to the h osp. today to have a bronchscopy (tube down your throat to look in your lungs) and I have to be there at 10:00. They start an iv and I wait 2 hours until they take me up to do the procedure. We get in the room and it is just the doctor, a resp. therp. and a nurse. They spray my throat and stick stuff up my nose and the nurse begins to give me the VERSED. I will admit addict that I am I was looking forward to my last legal high on the versed. I felt nothing as she kept pushing it in. I look down and my IV was infiltrated(out of the vein)….the versed was going into my tissues and my arm was swelling. I told the nurse and she took the IV out and tried to restart it in the other arm…..time after time in all the wrong places. The doctor was behind a screen working a crossword or something and the only thing he ever said to me was areyou asleep yet? I said no..the IV is not in my vein! He says to the nurse on his way out the door we would have to reschedule and get surg. up there to put me to sleep. I was sooo mad. The nurse should have called someone else up there to start the IV after she had tried twice. I do not need a bunch of heavy drugs…the versed would have worked fine as I have been assured by another moderator on this forum who had a simular procedure. .then I get to my room and my husgand says …well they couldn’t put you to sleep so we will have to do this again..(this iswhat he doctor had told him.) ..and I could just read hisface…yea your an addict so nothing works on you (maybe i was reading that in)..then they made mewait 2 hrs so I would not be groggy from any versed that might affect me in my tissues. for real?? me, an addict with nothing in my vein??? i was wide awake and wired and went off on my husband and acted like a fool for sure. The sad thing was nobody seemed to give a damn. I was so hurt and depressed and I do not want to repeat this again. Then I think about Rule and all he has been through and I felt guilty for throwing such a fit and feeling sorry for myself. I hope everyone else is treated better than I was…just because we are addicts does not mean we are not human and we do have feelings. Thank you all for letting me vent. Slipper |
THANKS everybody for your support…you just don’t know what it means to me to have you guys understand exactly how i felt. I know it was not a big deal procedure. My husband remains so CALM when things go wrong. He was upset as well but when I started trying to rip the leads off and go h ome he got all over me and told me I was acting like a baby and we had to stay there until they discharged us. I was ranting and raving and he really began to get mad at me then for acting like an ass. I don’t know why I can’t be calm like him. I just lose it over stuff when things go wrong like that. Of course he can be in really bad pain with a safe(thats where he keeps my pills) full of pain pills and instead will go take 3 advil?????
I really don’t know how we have stayed together married for 41 years. We are as opposite as night and day. Of course he is no addict and has put up with all my addict behavior all these years so I guess the man REALLY loves me. ..and he is a sweet guy, he really is. …and I ended up getting mad at him too yesterday!…but you guys understand me. I am so thankful I have someone to talk to. Thank you all again for your support. I love this forum.
Slipper