Having my son was the best & worst day of my life..

Author: amber4.14.11

Posted: Wed Oct 17, 2012 11:31 pm

https://www.suboxone.com/patients/opioid_dependence/find_a_doctor.aspx

The link above, is a suboxone doctor search tool, where you put in your zip and how far you are willing to travel, it gives you a list with the phone #s. if you have no luck, lets say 20 miles from your home, think how far you were willing to travel to get pills? and expand your search!!! when you call, if they say they have a ‘waiting list’ be sure to get on it, just in case!!! as a general rule, theres some people that arent ready to ‘commit’ so you can probably imagine, you may get called sooner than you think!!!

http://www.treatmentmatch.org/
this site has you sign up, and answer some questions, and the doctors call YOU.
(or email)

you also may want to think about how long you want to be on suboxone………some people only want to be on it a short time, some doctors have rules for patients, or a time limit they can be on suboxone. So, its a good question to ask yourself. if the only doctor you can get into right away ,, only allows let’s say 6 months, and you plan on being on longer, I’d say GO FOR IT, at least it will "buy" you six months of treatment.

I can definitely relate to your story….. I did some pretty terrible things during my addiction……. I was also addicted for about 10 years…… the last 5-6 being what I’d say "really bad" the last YEAR, by far the worst.
the addict in me, stole from the only people that loved me, or were willing to still even talk to me, when I was strung out.
the good thing is,
now it’s been 18months, and Ive really come a long way. Ive rebuilt many of those relationships, paid back many debts and managed to scrape myself up outta the gutter and put "me" back together. Definitely worth all the hard work, if you ask me. If someone would have told me, when I was where you are now, how fast I could put my life back together if I tried really hard, I would have NEVER believed it.
I dont even hardly remember my son’s first two years of life. I got on suboxone when he was about 2 1/2 yrs old.

There is alot of guilt, with everyone of us I think. but you know what??? you’ll find out that other people are faster at forgiving US than we are at forgiving ourselves.

Be prepared to ‘mourn’ your old life, , , , I know it might sound dumb, cuz right now your probably sick of it!!!!
but sooner or later, you’ll know what I mean. . . we come to the realization that its gone, the pills, the high, all of it.
it’s okay to mourn it, I think its all part of the healing process.

I’d also think about some kind of counseling/therapy/group therapy/meetings anything like that.
the more that you put into your ‘recovery’ the MORE you will GET OUT OF IT Wink

and great job being clean five days!!!! thats definitley something I was never able to do………
thats a hell of a good start Wink

Good Luck, I hope you find a doctor soon!!!!!!!!!! Wink

Having my son was the best & worst day of my life..

Author: amber4.14.11

Posted: Wed Oct 17, 2012 11:31 pm

https://www.suboxone.com/patients/opioid_dependence/find_a_doctor.aspx

The link above, is a suboxone doctor search tool, where you put in your zip and how far you are willing to travel, it gives you a list with the phone #s. if you have no luck, lets say 20 miles from your home, think how far you were willing to travel to get pills? and expand your search!!! when you call, if they say they have a ‘waiting list’ be sure to get on it, just in case!!! as a general rule, theres some people that arent ready to ‘commit’ so you can probably imagine, you may get called sooner than you think!!!

http://www.treatmentmatch.org/
this site has you sign up, and answer some questions, and the doctors call YOU.
(or email)

you also may want to think about how long you want to be on suboxone………some people only want to be on it a short time, some doctors have rules for patients, or a time limit they can be on suboxone. So, its a good question to ask yourself. if the only doctor you can get into right away ,, only allows let’s say 6 months, and you plan on being on longer, I’d say GO FOR IT, at least it will "buy" you six months of treatment.

I can definitely relate to your story….. I did some pretty terrible things during my addiction……. I was also addicted for about 10 years…… the last 5-6 being what I’d say "really bad" the last YEAR, by far the worst.
the addict in me, stole from the only people that loved me, or were willing to still even talk to me, when I was strung out.
the good thing is,
now it’s been 18months, and Ive really come a long way. Ive rebuilt many of those relationships, paid back many debts and managed to scrape myself up outta the gutter and put "me" back together. Definitely worth all the hard work, if you ask me. If someone would have told me, when I was where you are now, how fast I could put my life back together if I tried really hard, I would have NEVER believed it.
I dont even hardly remember my son’s first two years of life. I got on suboxone when he was about 2 1/2 yrs old.

There is alot of guilt, with everyone of us I think. but you know what??? you’ll find out that other people are faster at forgiving US than we are at forgiving ourselves.

Be prepared to ‘mourn’ your old life, , , , I know it might sound dumb, cuz right now your probably sick of it!!!!
but sooner or later, you’ll know what I mean. . . we come to the realization that its gone, the pills, the high, all of it.
it’s okay to mourn it, I think its all part of the healing process.

I’d also think about some kind of counseling/therapy/group therapy/meetings anything like that.
the more that you put into your ‘recovery’ the MORE you will GET OUT OF IT Wink

and great job being clean five days!!!! thats definitley something I was never able to do………
thats a hell of a good start Wink

Good Luck, I hope you find a doctor soon!!!!!!!!!! Wink