Author: Derailjr

Posted: Wed Oct 10, 2012 11:40 am

I went back through and actually finished reading all of your posts on this amber. How are you doing now? Everybody is right! You are one silly chick! I can’t even remember what the individual tests were that I did but hearing you recount your experience with testing, made me say, "I’ve got a long lost twin sister" It is amazing to me that we with the condition seem to be so similar. In my head, it’s all bs and I should be able to do it without any kind of medication. My brain tells me that the diagnosis is made up and we’re a society of wooses. However, that’s my insanity, if I come off my adderall I quickly lose the little focus I have. I say quickly, it actually takes about a week before your body excretes the last of your reserves. Unfortunately I know because I have tried to abuse the damn things before(surprising, I know) When I first started taking the stuff I thought, woohoo!, I have legal speed. It took all of 1 or 2 attempts to discover that I could eat way too many of them and go right to sleep. Some speed, huh. After those tries, I gave up on abusing them and just take them like I’m supposed to and have for years now. It’s like my vitamin in the morning. However, the addict in me had to try again that first day or two of sub free life. To my horror, nothin!!!

My point here is that if you are like me sis, the adderall is just an improvement for us! Even those few times I have run out before it was refill time, I had no ill effects being out for up to a week. I did discover that the instant release was better for me than the extended but that’s individual for all of us too.

The only thing that bothers me about the whole ADD thing is that I have passed this gene on to another generation. I have even cried about it at times. I remember how bad it was for me as a teen runaway, and I feel for my boy. I just hope that he never feels like he has to run to be ok. My wife and I have really struggled about the age old question of to medicate or not to medicate. Strattera was a bust. At 14, I don’t want to mess his growing body up, but then I think, if I could give him the focus I have gotten from adderall, wouldn’t he have a much better chance getting through these teen times without the pitfalls that I encountered. Hell, I lost my security clearance because of some stupid shit I told those idiots in treatment back in 1985. Had I only been diagnosed then, maybe I would not have had to take that honorable discharge 16 years too early. I LOVED the Navy and would be retired now at 42. But as of yet, we are not medicating him. Just trying to keep him as centered as possible with all of the chaos in his head.

I hope this finds you well…D