Author: Sublime3stylee

Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 5:57 pm

Thanks for the encouragement, Sickn! I too have lost loved ones to addiction and empathize with your experience there.

Well, 10 days and counting until I take the plunge. It has been remarkably easy to cut down my dosage from 12mg to 8mg and now to 6mg. I really want to step down to 4mg, but I keep rationalizing in my head that I might as well continue to enjoy my opioid buzz while I can. Typical dope-fiend logic, I suppose . Regardless, I am going to go down to 4mg beginning Monday, so I will have at least a few days of that lower dosage going into jump-off on Saturday the 13th. The nerves are starting to get to me, and I am really worried about how I am going to handle the kids while my wife is at work during the 2-week period I have allotted myself to detoxify. I have a 5-year old and a 7-month old. My youngest is difficult to bear even being on Suboxone, so I am justifiably worried that it is going to be rough when I am wigging out after about the 6th day of no sleep trying to deal with him. Fortunately, my mom is going to be on standby in case i can’t hack it. I am soooo fucking grateful; that I was able to get 2 weeks off from work to go through this. I simply would not get off the Zone if I had to actually get up for work each day during the process. I know that it can be beneficial to stay busy and keep your mind occupied, but I will do those things on my own terms rather than be forced to drag my sorry ass into work.

I will keep the forum posed as to how I progress heading into jump-off and during the withdrawals as well.

"May grace and peace be multiplied to you through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord." – 2 Peter 1:2

Author: Sublime3stylee

Posted: Thu Oct 04, 2012 5:57 pm

Thanks for the encouragement, Sickn! I too have lost loved ones to addiction and empathize with your experience there.

Well, 10 days and counting until I take the plunge. It has been remarkably easy to cut down my dosage from 12mg to 8mg and now to 6mg. I really want to step down to 4mg, but I keep rationalizing in my head that I might as well continue to enjoy my opioid buzz while I can. Typical dope-fiend logic, I suppose . Regardless, I am going to go down to 4mg beginning Monday, so I will have at least a few days of that lower dosage going into jump-off on Saturday the 13th. The nerves are starting to get to me, and I am really worried about how I am going to handle the kids while my wife is at work during the 2-week period I have allotted myself to detoxify. I have a 5-year old and a 7-month old. My youngest is difficult to bear even being on Suboxone, so I am justifiably worried that it is going to be rough when I am wigging out after about the 6th day of no sleep trying to deal with him. Fortunately, my mom is going to be on standby in case i can’t hack it. I am soooo fucking grateful; that I was able to get 2 weeks off from work to go through this. I simply would not get off the Zone if I had to actually get up for work each day during the process. I know that it can be beneficial to stay busy and keep your mind occupied, but I will do those things on my own terms rather than be forced to drag my sorry ass into work.

I will keep the forum posed as to how I progress heading into jump-off and during the withdrawals as well.

"May grace and peace be multiplied to you through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord." – 2 Peter 1:2