Author: Goinstrong
Posted: Thu Sep 06, 2012 8:57 am
Hi there! I realy am saddened by the tone of your post. It was like I could feel how sad you feel. I hate when anyone comes on here and feels this down about themselves. I too have suffered from depression, like a lot of us addicts do. I don’t know why, but I’m thinking that you may need to up your dose of suboxone. That is just my opinion. I am kind of surprised that the codeine is even doing anything for you. It is such a weak narcotic compared to most…esp bup.
I agree with the others in that you may just need a little help from an antidepressant. AMy suggested getting out of the house. I know that this is so much easier said than done, but it helps sooooo much. When I used to get this way, I would plop my little guy in his stroller and just go for a walk. Nothing vigorous. Just wnought o get some fresh air in my head, and lungs, and make my blood start pumping a little faster. It helps your brain to release those feel good chemicals too. I truly felt the best mentally when I went to the gym almost every single day. I did that for 7 years straight when I lived in Georgia. It really did make such a huge difference.
Do you like music? Music is great therapy for me. If you have a certain type or style of music that always seems to lift your spirits, perhaps you could try leaving it on in the background. Or even blaring it!!! It always makes me feel better. It doesn’t have to be music either. Just find something that you know you used to love. It’s gonna be hard right now because you feel like crap. But when you weren’t feeling this way, think of the things that you would do, that would bring you pleasure. I always liked to read a good book. Getting lost in a good page turner, is awesome for me. My point is just find ANYTHING that used to bring you some sort of pleasure, joy, stimulation, or whatever. Even if it doesnt now. And then start doing something a little at a time. You may be surprised at how quickly you become engrossed in what you’re doing. Just give it a shot.
Also I wanted to mention something that another member had me try. It’s called lovingkindness. It takes some work, and I don’t have the hang of it yet, but its already making a major difference in how I feel about myself. The thread is called "missing emily" and diary of a quitter is who posted it. She made it really simple by just posting the web page right on my thread. Check it out if you want to. I think this could be a great thing.
Well, I am out of ideas for now, but you hang in there. I hope that you will come back and let us know how you are doing. Depression is such a hard thing to ge tthrough, but I believe you will make it. Suicide is not the answer. It is just a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You sound like such a nice man. I wish that I knew you in real life, so that I could go to lunch with you and pick you up a little…You are going to be ok. I promise. Just keep on posting how you feel to us. We will be here right with you through it all..ok? chin up! You desesrve to be happy.