Author: nogroovin
Posted: Sat Sep 01, 2012 10:31 am
Homer,
I experienced the same things with subs- sometimes they just didn’t seem to work. Now I figure it was because either I didn’t wait long enough or I wasn’t really ready to quit- prolly the latter. I knew I NEEDED to quit, but wasn’t sure I could maintain yet. Know what I mean? I was sorta experimenting with the thought of quitting. Buying the subs on the street and using them for a week and then going back on the blueberries. It wasn’t until the dea kicked my buddies door down & locked him up with a $100,000 all cash bail that I decided to get into a sub program and really commit to it
I was on subs for exactly 4 months. The last day I took them was the last day of march- so I think that means its right around 6 months that I’m off them.. Lol. I’m terrible with dates & stuff- I see people remember things down to the day and sometimes I wish I was more like that. I started out needing 3 per day.. That lasted for almost 3 full weeks.. Once I got stabilized I was able to start cutting pretty quick though- but during those 1st 3 weeks I wasn’t able to go without the subs for long.. In fact, one of the things I see recommended here a lot is once daily dosing.. That makes a ton of sense, but it was something I could never accomplish consistently.. I think it’s because I was tapering too quick- but I almost always dosed twice per day, right up to the end.
Honestly, physically I feel good. Getting good sleep again and not feeling the RLS anymore.. Mentally I’ve been having cravings again though.. I’m going to try to work thru them, but if it gets sketchy I’m just gonna jump back on the subs.. I know others have had different experiences with subs but mine was great. I’m not going to risk a full blown relapse just to avoid going back on subs.. My dr told me he’d taper me quick if I wanted but that he figured I needed a year or so on them.. Looking back he was prolly right about that year..
Amber,
It’s crazy how we justify our actions isn’t it? Lol. I swear to god I talked myself into believing a batch of subs were duds.. Even tried to get my dealer to refund me the money. All I really wanted was an excuse to get high again, but I had to plead my case. After all, it wasn’t my fault- the subs were duds. Lol. Ughhhhh