Author: cbunny

Posted: Wed Aug 22, 2012 8:23 am

Today would be my fifth day off subs, but I could not take the terrible WD’s. I took a sliver from an 8mg strip that was 1/10 of the strip. My Story is that I have been an opiate abuser for 10 years. My most recent encounter with subs is I was put on 24 mgs. sublingual ( strips ) Feb 16th of 2012. The second week after starting I went down to 16. A month Later down to 12, a month later down to 8. Then June I went down to half then to what I can only assume is 1-2 mgs a day. I wish i had the pills because I believe calculating my dosage would be easier. I have 5, 8mg strips left. I flushed what i thought i had in the house, but found subs in purses and pants pockets that i forgot about. Suboxone saved my life but I realized I don’t want to be on any addictive substances. I have a supportive family, and a bf who i live with who is in a program and loves me very much. The first 2 nights were hell, the third got better, and the fourth I actually ate. Last night i was tossing and turning, and a reason i used is because i don’t like to feel feelings, and my body felt terrible. Every time i attempt recovery the flood of feelings sends me to an emotional, up and down fight or flight of insanity but eventually i do feel better, go to meetings and attempt to live my life . I can not afford to stop going to work. I have not talked to my dr because he wanted me to stay on the subs long term. I attend meetings but not enough. My appt does not have a bath, and i have been drinking water, taking ib profen, and eating pepto like my life depends on it. I appreciate any advice, I know I can do it, but I will gladly take any advice, or insight. I hope everyone has a nice day, and take care.