Author: Subsavedme

Posted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 8:57 pm

Tearj3rker below is a post from day 17. I am on day 26 now. Answers your question on the feeling of abstinence.

6 years total opiate use with three years of sub 8 mg down to 1mg before jump 17 days ago. First I want to thank a few posters. Romeo, Tearjerker, Laddertripper, diary of a a quiter. Your posts have gotten me through the thick of it and I am grateful for this. Yesterday I made the mistake if having a few beers at the beach near my old stopping grounds. Not a good idea. Had cravings for about 3 hous after the drinks. Used mindfulness and the technique of watching my thoughts, urges, reactions. Told my fiancé what was happening and the urges subsided eventually. Haven’t slept great in a long while, but I have accepted it and it’s ok. What we resist persists. I work a 50+ hour job that I was not able to take off and that has been painfully enlightening.

When I had my urges, my fiancé asked how is that possible whm you said you feel better than ever just this morning. Here is how I explained. Since day 9 there has been a change in my state of consciousness. Life has a certain vitality to it. I study Buddhism and I can relate to what is called the "Suchness" or "is" ness of life The best is sitting on a park bench and seeing the greeness of the grass, freshness of the air, aliveness of everything around me that I am just a part of. It’s awesome! Despite this new found awareness, my limbic system still shoots out chemicals that trigger memories of the "pleasurable" feelings from the opiates. However, what I mentioned above outweighs the urge to get a cheap empty thrill. Geez, I am ranting. anyways, I feel better than ever this morning and keep getting better each day-slowly but surely. To echo a lot of posters. Excerscise is Key! Also, eat fresh food, protein shakes with amino acids, l-tyrosine, multi-vitamine, potassium, magnesium and lots of water’ juice and V8. I know I have a long road ahead still, but today I am grateful for what I have been through. We must find strength in pain and transcend. We can do this. We can be free. We can love and laugh and cry and sing once again!! Thank you!!!

Author: Subsavedme

Posted: Tue Mar 27, 2012 8:57 pm

Tearj3rker below is a post from day 17. I am on day 26 now. Answers your question on the feeling of abstinence.

6 years total opiate use with three years of sub 8 mg down to 1mg before jump 17 days ago. First I want to thank a few posters. Romeo, Tearjerker, Laddertripper, diary of a a quiter. Your posts have gotten me through the thick of it and I am grateful for this. Yesterday I made the mistake if having a few beers at the beach near my old stopping grounds. Not a good idea. Had cravings for about 3 hous after the drinks. Used mindfulness and the technique of watching my thoughts, urges, reactions. Told my fiancé what was happening and the urges subsided eventually. Haven’t slept great in a long while, but I have accepted it and it’s ok. What we resist persists. I work a 50+ hour job that I was not able to take off and that has been painfully enlightening.

When I had my urges, my fiancé asked how is that possible whm you said you feel better than ever just this morning. Here is how I explained. Since day 9 there has been a change in my state of consciousness. Life has a certain vitality to it. I study Buddhism and I can relate to what is called the "Suchness" or "is" ness of life The best is sitting on a park bench and seeing the greeness of the grass, freshness of the air, aliveness of everything around me that I am just a part of. It’s awesome! Despite this new found awareness, my limbic system still shoots out chemicals that trigger memories of the "pleasurable" feelings from the opiates. However, what I mentioned above outweighs the urge to get a cheap empty thrill. Geez, I am ranting. anyways, I feel better than ever this morning and keep getting better each day-slowly but surely. To echo a lot of posters. Excerscise is Key! Also, eat fresh food, protein shakes with amino acids, l-tyrosine, multi-vitamine, potassium, magnesium and lots of water’ juice and V8. I know I have a long road ahead still, but today I am grateful for what I have been through. We must find strength in pain and transcend. We can do this. We can be free. We can love and laugh and cry and sing once again!! Thank you!!!