Author: Rmac04

Posted: Tue Feb 28, 2012 11:17 pm

Damn dude I guess you and me are pretty much in the same boat. I am at day 94 since my last little lapse and 8 months off subs and I have been feeling extremely edgy and like PAWS have kicked back in full force over the past week. I remember reading something regarding the milestones 30, 60, 90 days, 6 months, 9 months and a year and what is going on in your brain at those points. Ill try to find the article. I actually did the exact math you did today realizing if I only used once every 90 days.. well that is only 4 times a year. For me I just play the tape and realize how much just one day of use sets back my progress. I too want to cruise past this 90 day mark and I feel like the further and further we get away from it the harder it will be for us to just say fuck it and throw away our sobriety time. I guess we have a "Reservation" as they like to tell us in AA and hopefully that goes away for us at some point.. but we re thinkin on the same page brother. Stay strong. This too shall pass