Author: mrssky

Posted: Thu Jan 26, 2012 3:34 pm

wow, I just responded to this topic on another post. It really does seem that a lot of us experience this apathy/depression. Interesting to think that it might just be my brain either damaged or trying to right itself from the damage. It is helping me to read that other people experience it too. I moved at the same time I got clean, so I always blame it on moving. As I said in the other post, I dont have friends in this new city. It is depressing, but why can’t I get off my butt and do something about it? I only do the most neccessary tasks, getting kids to, from school-practices, I don’t even always cook dinner as I sometimes just don’t feel like it. ( There is always food for my kids to get for themselves) I just wish I could light a fire under my ass….but then because of my fibromyalgia, On the days I do feel good, I do too much, then feel horrible again. It is a viscious cycle. I don’t know how to get more motivation. I am 40. I need to get more out of life, at this age. I just don’t know how to get myself to do it.