The black sheep=a lonely child=a confused teenager=an addict

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Author: Romeo

Posted: Mon Jan 16, 2012 11:08 am

Hey Runningbear ( Laughing ), I think my addiction/drug use was similar to yours. I had 26 years of active addiction, I abused some type of drug everyday for 26 years. I was 43 when I finally stopped, that’s 1.5 years ago. My recovery is progressing, at times very slowly because I can be a bit on the stubborn side at times. (MAJORLY, HUGELY STUBBORN!!! LOL)

I have to keep reminding myself that this recovery crap is a process and that there’s no real finish line, it just goes on and on, kinda like the energizer bunny. But that’s OK, I’m in it for the long haul and like I posted on the APATHY thread, while sobriety may SUCK at times, it sure beats the hell out of being on drugs.

Learning to live life without drugs has been a huge challenge for me. Accepting the fact that life SUCKS at times AND not being able to run to my drugs to numb myself out has taken a lot of getting used to, but I’m making it…..one day at a time. In my case, I honestly think, at times, that I just need to grow up. I believe my drug use stunted a fair portion of my emotional growth, so a part of me is like 17 or 18 still, all while living in a 44 year olds body. NO, I’m not like Sybil, at least I don’t think I am?? Laughing

Good job not falling into the Devil’s trap with those Opana!! Those dang things are a one way ticket to hell.

Amber, your son is a hoot!! The whole, "oh gosh momma,, rough day" thing is hilarious!! I would have completely fell apart if that happened to me, I mean I’d have been rolling on the floor!!

We got a little snow here over past few days. I brought my daughter to a lake that’s pretty close to our house over the weekend, that’s our play spot. She gets to go "exploring" while I throw twigs and stuff at her to annoy her. The snow had mostly melted, but my darling child found one of the last patches of it and managed to slip on it and fall, of course, she got all muddy and of course, we were at the lake just before church. So, when we got home, her and I got the evil eye from the old hag who lives upstairs (my wife!!! LOL!! PLEASE don’t tell her I called her an old hag, she already told me no sex for a week for the last stupid thing I said to her!! hahahaha). Anyway, we ended up skipping church and giggling at the look the old hag kept giving us!!