Author: indigochild

Posted: Mon Dec 12, 2011 5:51 am

indigo. I also have bipolar 1 and addiction issues. Don’t let your "conditions" rule your life, or define who you are. Often people with bipolar are extremely high functioning, and live healthy happy lives, as long as they steer clear of drug abuse and keep themselves treated. I’ve found that as long as my mood-stabilisers are maintained, my depression doesn’t dip low enough to require anti-depressants.

And that "feeling", that buzz you speak of, is an illusion. If the opioid high truly made people feel good, then why do all the junkies look miserable?[/quote]

I agree to an extent. Normally, I don’t use an anti-depressant…just lamictal, gabapentin, klonopin 1mg prn (rarely take it)
This wellbutrin is kind of experiment. I get very depressed in the winter and have been in a deep depressive state( I’d much rather be manic). I know mania causes brain damage and sucks but if I had to pick.

I just wish I felt open enough where I could tell people: I had an awful, debilitating drug problem for 10 years. now it’s under control. its just as bad as cancer so give me a fucking break instead of that ‘junky’ look! I do want to hold my head up high and say it

the more I think, I want to go into the recovery feild. I always wanted a job that impacted peoples lives’ and this could be it…I have a PHD and several years of junky residency to fill the requirements…this is something I’m going to look into, but I need something real- I have to make a living and I cant live off a social workers salary. I will have to finish my degree and get a masters in a designated feild…an interventionist would be a kick-ass job!