Author: Eveleivibe

Posted: Thu Aug 01, 2013 4:25 pm

Hiya movie,

Thank you for your reply n understanding. I been on suboxone for two months. I been drinking 1-2 bottles a night n still been on codeine. I been abusing my antidepressants at times. I can’t seem to stop myself.
Someone said if I carry on thay they will take my suboxone off me. I’m frightened as I’m on 8mg suboxone n I don’t what that would be like if that stopped it. I’m kinda scared. I can’t seem to stop doing all this. I just feel empty inside n the drink helps me somehow connect with my emotions. I know i’m wrong with what I’m doing but I don’t know how to stop. I just feel so empty inside just on suboxone – not warm n comforted like a huge, thick blanket is protecting me against the world the way codeine made me feel n all these thoughts of having stronger opiates.

Surely the suboxone should stopping the craving for codeine???? I’ve had 32 n+ today which is 12.8 codeine n 200 inoprofen n ive had 2 bottles of wine.

Just want to be happy. Im with drug n alcohol service n the problem is I am a people pleaser n do whater to please them. So i tell my key worker what i think she wants to hear. You see my parents ried forcing me of codeine when they found out – came into my house, took the codeine, i had to go there 4 times a day n I felt like I was on eggshells (never want to go through that ago but I broke down after a week of being sick first due to withdrawal n then to overdosing big time on iboprofen not having the guts to go hospital cause I’d taken 64 nurofen plus in one day n the next day some more nurofen plus n 2 bottles of codeine linctus (each contacting 200ml (600mg) codeine. I broke down n told my mam everyone how i’d order 112 60mg codeine fortnightly costing $257.

My life is a mess I’m on 8mg suboxone why am I thinking of codeine? (Even more so after alcohol.

I’m so very sorry about rant. I need help so much n people keep losing patients with me. But no 1 understands. No one

Evey xxxx