Author: SnapShawt

Posted: Fri Jul 05, 2013 4:15 pm

Hello again everyone. I want to thank those who have replied to previous posts and thought it would be best to a single update in a new thread. This has been a roller-coaster for me.

As you know, I started the Sub on Saturday morning at 24mg per day. I reduced that on Monday to 16mg and then to 12mg on Tuesday, and Tuesday was my second appointment with the new pain management physician. The Suboxone hasn’t done anything for the pain, but it did at least quell what would have been horrid WDs.

So the doctor came into the room and said he received my records, MRIs and CTs. He said though an "extreme injustice" (his words) was done with allowing me to reach the 180mg Oxycodone per day that I was at, he feels that I absolutely do need to be on narcotic pain medication after reviewing the images.

I thought you have GOT to be kidding me! All THIS just to come back around to this!? He told me to immediately stop the Suboxone and then prescribed 10/325 Hydrocodone four times daily (40mg per day). He said the next couple of days would be "rough." Well, they actually haven’t been horrible. I have not had any WDs from the Oxycodone and only minimally thus far from the Sub and that’s practically gone now (I was only on it four days – granted though a high dose). I was confused. I said wait a minute, right now I’ve got this Suboxone in me and it will stay there for two or three more days at least, but you want mt to start the Hydrocodone today?

Perhaps I can credit it with continuing to stop whatever WDs were left, but it sure as all hell isn’t doing a damn thing for the pain. My tolerance just didn’t magically reduce THAT much in a week! HOWEVER, I will say this – it did reduce some.

So now I’m stuck in this strange limbo – I’m on a medication now that does nothing for the pain. His primary concern appears to have been to simply get me off the Oxycodone, and I suppose I should credit him with doing that. But even typing this right now is an effort. Everything is just on hold right now and I don’t know what to do. When I went to him I told him I wanted to continue the taper I had already started (I WAS on 360mg a day and took that down myself to the 180mg it was at before going to him), and he took me down this road.

The prevailing attitude now is that it’s just better to hurt and suffer than to be on any opiate. That’s sad but true. I just don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m tired, just truly and honestly tired. Every single day has been a stronger "I just can’t do this anymore" than the one before, and it’s growing weary.