Author: mw.stoner

Posted: Wed Jul 03, 2013 1:04 pm

Hello everyone! Back in March, I received a PM from rule62 that jmdear and others wanted to know how I was doing.

Well… I didn’t answer back then, because sadly, I was using. Ugh! I am so, so ashamed to admit this here after my long detailed chronicle of quitting sub last year. In late February and early March, I stupidly thought it would be a good idea to try 60mg of morphine that my friend offered to me. I thought, "no big deal, right?" WRONG! Within a month, I was using heroin again. I cannot even begin to describe the guilt I have regarding going back to opiates without really thinking through the consequences and the result was falling into the hole again.

If anything, I guess this was a learning experience. A costly one. I went back to sub in April starting at 2mg and tapered down to .75 mg for a few weeks and my last dose was Monday, 7/1 at 6:00 PM, so I’m coming up on 48 hours after jumping off. As I did previously with my last jump, I’ll update my progress here. I’m curious to see if the symptoms will be as (or more) severe or less so when I jumped from 1.5mg last year. Unfortunately, I only have off of work until next Monday, so I’m hoping I’ll at least be good enough to go back by then and won’t have to call in sick for a few days. Having the 11 days off for my previous jump was nice, but I don’t have that luxury this time around.