Author: rob4513
Posted: Fri Jun 14, 2013 12:39 pm
bettyboop
i really appreciate the honesty in your reply.. and yes now is the best time for me to be in recovery just because of the fear of all the things that i have to lose still. its a short list, as i have screwed up so much already, but i plan getting my life back together and the only way ive seen other people do it answers
Romeos question,
i am in complete agreeance (is that a word?) with him on getting off drugs and staying off drugs are two seperate things..
brief story, i was told that i have the disease of alcholisim and addiction at 16 years old, yes folks i was pretty much full blown that young.. fast forward 10 years to a little over 3 months ago i was walking into my 9th treaatment center, well crawling into begging for help. about my 10th day in there something hit me, and i was sitting there thinking "wow, I am a drug addict/alcoholic just like they said.." then the most amazing thing happend, see i had heard of AA/NA a decade ago but was the oppisite of willing to actually do 12 steps/AA for the reason that i thought these people just couldnt handle their liqour/drugs.. but all of a sudden i hear this guy say he is 30 years sober, another guy say he is 15 years clean, and another say 4 months, and come to find out the one thing they all have in common is the fact that they are all working very hard in their program and not only are they clean but yes they are happy as well.. this is what i want.. so i got busy working those steps, and getting completley honest with myself, god, and my sponsor… so to answer the question, yes my plan is to stay in AA and accept life for what it is, and figure out how to deal with it… i have come to figure out that my problem was never drugs/alcohol, my problem is rob is a sick man… I feel that acceptance and honesty has been key for me getting clean, and also (close your eyes if you dont beleive in higher powers) god. so my opinion is simple, stay in the middle of AA, stay honest, open minded, and willing and stay close to others like me, work steps hard, and i Dont have to fail again.
even though i am only 19 days off of subs, i count my clean date as march 4th 2013, and i owe it all to AA and God.. all i did is show up, and they are showing me how its done.
btw it was suggested to me to keep a journal of coming off the subs, so i came here to help myself and do just that, and I have gotten more hope from it than i imagined i would.. you guys are awesome