Author: tinydancer

Posted: Mon May 27, 2013 2:00 pm

My situation was a bit different…

When I was on suboxone, I had anything but a boring, monotonous life. I worked hard and was successful (in a fun, ever changing industry,) traveled a lot, had a lot of good people around me.. I was very productive and from the outside, you’d think I had everything. I should have been enjoying this life, right? Suboxone allowed me to get to where I am but gradually it dulled me into a state where I had a really hard time enjoying this amazing life I had worked so hard to build. Dulled senses and anxiety were my bigest issues after long term maintenance. That’s pretty frustrating, no? What is the point of having everything if you can’t enjoy it? I am grateful today though.. because I still have the life that suboxone allowed me to create but now I’m able to fully enjoy it..

There are a lot of posts around here that say stuff to the effect of "we’re addicts and fucked up, dont blame suboxone, you were already broken".. etc. Sometimes medication is actually responsible for some things. Imagine that..
I still stand by suboxone as the best treatment for addiction and wouldn’t change my maintenance other than jumping a little sooner. It’s truly amazing how it helped me to transform my life.. unfortunately I couldn’t hang on it any longer.