Author: qhorsegal2

Posted: Thu Mar 28, 2013 12:47 pm

Done,

How are you doing today? I was glad to see the turn in your last post. Let’s focus your anger where it needs to be, toward this addiction that we share. No matter what we all have that common bond here on this forum. I am really pulling for you here. I am also getting close to D-Day, I don’t have an exact date yet but It’s coming within the next 2 or 2 1/2 months. So, I am watching to see how you are able to handle this CT. I have been through it, it sucks. That’s all I can say. To me there wasn’t much difference between the wd from subs and hydrocodone. It took a few days to start but once it did I went a full 7 days with NO improvement. Then blessed relief when I had my next appt. I am not looking for my next WD to be as bad because I am actually doing my taper like I am supposed to be now. I had to finally give my sub over to my husband to give me my dose every day. It is hidden from me so I won’t be tempted. I know this is not ideal but it is working for now. Whatever it takes. That’s where I am right now. My only focus is getting completely sober right now. I long for the day when I am not having to think about taking any substance to make me feel normal. Sweet freedom, that is the desire of my heart. And it sounds like yours as well.

I would be happy to offer you any support I can in your journey. Stay strong, keep your resolve, and remember to focus your anger where it is deserved, you only control your own actions. I am learning to not worry so much what anyone else thinks, even my family. I need to be selfish right now, it’s hard for them to understand that I can’t do this for anyone but myself. But if I don’t focus on me I won’t succeed and that is just the cold, hard truth. I never said it was pretty.

Keep us updated!