Author: Jennicole525

Posted: Fri Mar 22, 2013 8:56 pm

Hello hello again everyone!

Awe shucks, horsegal! *blush* Lol. I’m flattered. I love all ya’ll guys! You all have a very special place in my heart..

So today is, gosh I don’t even know what day it is anymore!… Thirty, nine, days. I Had to look at my calendar in my phone and noticed tomorrow it’s labeled, "40 days, BEOTCH!!!" A ha! Any little bit of encouragement helps I think I caught a little bug of some sort. I threw up 3 times and had some lovely G.I. Issues this a.m./ early evening. I couldn’t of cared less, however because I’d take that any day over the first 3 weeks of this whole shin dig.

My energy is slowly coming back. I have moderate waves of w/d now but not nearly as intense as before. i couldn’t sleep last night, but thats to be expected. (Sucks serious butt though.) This flight definitely does expect turbulence!!! I even took pleasure with my children today and so so much enjoyed them. What a relief. I thought I’d turned into a cold hearted bitch for a while there these past days. (Not me at ALL! Scary.) I haven’t though, I’m still sweet old Jen. I even felt love again with my old man. Sure, I loved him before. But this time, I felt it. Eww, kooties. still having headaches at night. I’m just trying to justify them and tell myself it’s only temporary, you’re brains doing some renovation.

At this point, I’m just waiting and looking forward for the "flip day" where I think to myself "I feel great!" I may have to wait awhile. I’ve come to realize that. But each day brings "feeling better" and improvement. when I go to bed, I tell myself that tomorrow I will feel better. Its the truth. Not cured, not 100% by any means, but better… Gets your brain off the negative and makes it focus else where. Good mind trick.

The emotions running through my head are very present. It can be anything random to trigger them. It’s hard to explain because they are very much so in waves. It’s almost like a mental w/d symptom I’m feeling. Although my feelings and emotions are very sensitive right now, I’m adjusting to them. I can successfully watch tv without shedding tears over nothing. Now, lets see how I can adjust to the crap I’m going to have to hash out eventually! Oh yea…Paying the piper, brah. Greedy bastard, lol.

Ironically, my beloved (insanely cute, perfect and all that junk and thinks he’s a labrador like his sister) cats name is piper. He’s a good constant reminder that its only temporary! Ironic? I’d like to think not. maybe ill have to change my screen name

Thanks again you guys and good day, folks! -Jen <3