Author: Icaras

Posted: Wed Feb 27, 2013 4:38 pm

Why do I feel taking sub for me feels my normality? is this a bad sign as well? in the past I use to feel sub was not my normality and could remember what normal felt like, but now it feels sub is part of me, as though its my brain, and I can’t function if I don’t have a brain, these kind of feelings scare me. I would very much prefer to feel some mental symptoms of clarity whereby you know in the back of your mind when your taking sub your binding something to the receptors..

Hell I would not mind if I felt affects such as withdrawals (mental) while am tapering, that would tell me ma healing and getting rid of the sub, but am not even feeling that, never have for couple of years, now, perhaps when I continue to taper down further I may feel mental clarity? feel as though am coming back to my old self? as of now I don’t even know what normal felt like, it’s felt as though I’ve been taking sub for all my life, I don’t want those feelings, because it just stresses me that it may take a hell of a long time recovering or permanent damage? at least if you know you dont feel normal on sub and feel highs and can remember normality round the corner, then it gives you a sign that you still got a big chance to recover quickly, but when I try to remember days and things prior to my sub use I just feel I was on sub those days well..

2 years ago I could feel some emotions, mental clarity and if I thought about the past I could feel it was without the sub, even feel high, but now I don’t get none of that.

Is it possible that when I continue to taper down further I may feel some clarity? fog lifting? body and mind healing? feeling back to my old self? I heard what with the half life of sub you don’t feel these things unless your a month or 2 away from sub, so tapering may only cut down the severity of pshycal withdrawals, but duration and mental foggyness will do its own thing whether you taper or not.