Author: fingerscrossed2013
Posted: Fri Feb 15, 2013 12:24 pm
Hey Boxed!! Thank you so much for the encouragement! He wrote me for one week. Lol. Which is better. I am scared because I don’t want all of this to start affecting my work life. Unfortunately, doc has the power so I have to hope my work just bears with me thru my "appointments."
In a lot of ways I believe I did have a better than a junkie chip on my shoulder. And that’s just not how most professionals will look at it. And since I have been "buying them off the street" in their eyes….I am a junkie. He was a lot easier to deal with today. He sensed my humility and worked with me much better but his oppinion of me is still very low. I unfortunately truly need sub. And he looks at sub as just a tool to begin life of complete sobriety. I don’t feel that strong yet, but I have to do what me and baby need rt now. And maybe I can find another doctor after giving birth that understands sub long term.
I am probably in a program that is going to require weekly visits. That really sucks with my schedule. Sigh. One day at a time 