Tee and Lilly- the empty feeling sucks and I am pissed too because my doc did me no justice on 32mg for eight years. I suppose getting angry is good. I basically have been crying myself to sleep everynight. I don’t even remember christmas. I know I feel better, a little I just need to keep telling myself that I guess. Lilly, what you stated about being around people struck it, my husband drives a semi so he was here for a few days and then back to work. I do have my daughter right now, she stays with her dad, but once she is gone I am pretty much on my own (my son is 20 and works or is gone a lot) I am actually thinking about going and staying with my parents for a while, they are close by. I am not working but going to school online which starts again on January 7th. So right now I have nothing to do and I think that is getting to me.

The one thing I know for sure is that I will never go through this shit again, I’d rather die than form an addiction to any opiates. My new pain management physican has found other ways to help me so the only pain I am allowing myself to have is the kind that advil will help. I have seen people on here that seem to relapse quite a bit, I have this withdraw experience embeded in my head to keep my clean. Whatever it takes is all I can say.

Cammie